Well, yesterday I had this entry all planned out in my head and now I've gone and forgotten everything I wanted to say.

This weekend was.. well... lonely. Everyone was out and about and I just sitting home working on graphs and sleeping. Which is what I needed, but it still made me feel like and utter loser.

I still can't believe that I have a week and half left here. And it's not just that wish I could stay here (although that would be under the condition that I could get Pat out here), it's the realization that my summer is basically over. And I feel like I haven't really had much of a vacation.

I'm also terrified of the talk I have to give next week. Not only will it be in a large auditorium with lots of pro. scientists. But my dad will be there. And anyone who knows me will know how important it is to me to make my parents proud of me. *shiver*

I also think I may be doing damage to my hand with all the grinding of algae I've done. Yesterday I had to grind more samples. This is after like 5 days of resting my hand. I think I could feel the bones and joints of my fingers rubbing together. A most disturbing feeling I must say. And to think I still have like 30 samples to go. And no help for me since Mirta is running the Lachat to analyze the water samples we took on the kayak. *woe*

And now onto what has been occupying my mind a lot lately. The subject of the DeviantArt chaos. Basically, one of the two founders (and the only one of the two left on admin) woke up one day to find himself no longer an admin on the site. Chaos much? And it all has to do with this corporate bs and such. I dunno. But of course, in a typically obssessive manner, I've been following the whole thing really closely and reading everything I can and trying to figure things out. And again we have more evidence of my obssessive personally. pfft. As if my tendancy to take up "causes" doesn't support it enough. *sigh* I'm slowly building a link list of everything I can find about this matter. It's bad. Community in chaos, other admin resigning like it's going out of style... Craziness I say. Anyway.. those of you looking to find out more, I suggest looking at the userpages of jark and spyed (the two people "fighting"). Also, justthorne is keeping a pretty good list of what's going on as well as bookdiva (jark's mommy).
I'll try and post my own list for my memory purposes later.

Oh online politics... How I obssess over thee...
It's weird really. Somewhere inside, I know they dont matter. But I always find myself drawn in... link hopping for hours... reading everything I can on the topic. And in the moment... it matters. Why else would I follow the devart thing so closely? Why else would I be so worried last year when OAN and tAn were having their hub network wars? Obviously it mattered. It may not have affected me... it may not have even changed anything when it was over. Yeah... or maybe I just have issues.. Who knows.

and thus i end on this note: yay for bagels

ps-i changed my layout but it is definitely not user-friendly despite being cool looking. Check it out! Note: I'll be modifying it at some later date i suppose.

coffee is my life saver during the week.

This weekend was *awesome*. Pat arrived in Woods Hole on Friday and he stayed till Sunday afternoon. I feel guilty for sleeping a lot of the time he was here. But I was still really tired from last week. He was super sweet and I really needed that this weekend. Things are slowly starting to go worse here. Work is becoming far too time-consuming. And I know that's why we are here, but it's hard to know that we will be putting in all this effort only to walk away in 3 weeks. People in the house get increasingly loud. Maybe being crazy and being loud is how they like to de-stress, but it's wearing on me slowly. When I'm stressed, I like to get away in silence and peace. *sigh* I dunno.

But this weekend was really nice. I had a good time relaxing and such. I'm so lucky to have him...

In other news... I FINISHED HARRY POTTER!!!! omg. I didn't know what to think afterwards...
( stream of conscious thoughts )

Work is bleh. Spent all day in front of a comp. And now to work.

So... what has happened to me lately?

This weekend Brian came up to visit me. We went to Provincetown which was just amusing. It's a nice atmosphere up there. Really lively and colorful. Some of the stores are a bit questionable.... (we *had* to walk into the store called Forbidden Fruit.... it looked normal from the outside...) but it was fun. Also an amazing view out there. Watched Fantastic Four. blargh. what a poorly exeuted movie. Then Sunday we went to the beach with some of his cousins which I was afraid would be awkward but turned out to be really fun.

Been doing my kayaking fieldwork. Friday and yesterday... all day in a kayak. Which would be nice except that it rained all day Friday and yesterday was *really* sunny and thus I was tired and dehydrated by the end of it all. And damn..... those seats are so uncomfortable... Thus, it is refreshing to be in the lab today just puttering around. Granted it's boring, but I'm inside where it's cool and not doing physical labor.... We go out again on Thursday. I hope it will be nice out...

There was something I wanted to say...... and now I forget. Damnit. That always happens to me. I suppose I should go look busy now.. or not. I kinda already finished everything I can do for the moment. Maybe I'll go check my mail....

So here I am at 7:45am.... sitting in the office.... waiting for someone else to show up..... *yawn*

Weekend was quite fun. Went to Woods Hole and Stoney Beach on Saturday followed by mini-pizzas, a movie and pie. (yum). Sunday was beach. It was so nice out!!! I fell asleep in the sun and am now a little sunburnt for the first time in a loooong time. *whimper* It hurts.... And we had a lovely grilling adventure. We made hamburgers.... Neither of us have ever tried grilling before. I think there was more smoke than normal involved... but they cooked and were yummy. So there. And yesterday was really cool. We paddled out to this island near our house and brought food. We grilled on the beach!!! =) It was so fun. We also had strawberry shortcake and blueberries. (red white and blue!). Fun times. I'm glad Cristina came up to see me.

It was painful getting up this morning. It took me half an hour. Rachel wanted to leave sooo early. Luckily I'd made most of my lunch last night. And then I got here at 7:30 and thought I was going to die. I'm going out into the field today to setup half my experiment. I wish it were sunnier out... Oh well. So now we have to setup and prepare to go out. *sigh* Back to work again.

And in other news... I MISS PAT!!!! *cry* Hopefully he can come up this weekend..... *wibbles*

We fixed the interweb@!!!!

End transmission.

I'm tired. And in the first 15 minutes of my day I managed to realize that I can't find my Palm Pilot or the cord for my iPod to transfer new music. *sigh* As if i needed more drama.

I'm in such a blah mood. I just want to get away. Go sit somewhere alone and think.

No... I'm going to be fine. I am fine. Yeah. I'm fine....


rawr.

This weekend was freakin awesome! Lena, Phil and Pat arrived around 10 on Saturday and we went off to the Falmouth Strawberry Festival where we ate yummy strawberry shortcake. Then we chilled in Woods Hole for a while and such. Dinner was a chinese takeout picnic on the beach followed by a failed attempt to toast marshmallows over a lighter. Then we went to the hotel and played cards. It was fun.

Sunday was spent at IHOP and then Old Silver Beach getting sunburned. (well i didn't get burned, but everyone else did) Then we took a pizza to the beach and had a final moment. And then they were rather sadly off. I didn't have time to mope around though because I went with my housemates to go see Batman Begins.

*hearts* Now... I havent seen any of the Batman movies, but even I liked it. yeah.

Today was boring and lonely though. Everyone is gone in Spain and I'm just puttering around. Eh.
At least it was nice outside today and I went outside.

Anyway... off to play a game or something...

Hmm... 9:06 and at work with a muffin and a raspberry italian soda.... yummm

Well yesterday was boring since everyone here leaves for Spain today so I just sat around and tried not to get in the way too much. Lots of pretending to read and complusive email checking. Meh.

So I biked to work today!!! 11.5 miles. Hardcore. Hehe. It was actually nice. I felt good when we got here. I think that's the only time I'll ever be glad to get here. Cuz when you bike it's just so good to be done. So yeah. And since we all got here at 8:30 I had time to go to Coffee O. Of course, then I realized that I forgot my key so I couldn't get in the office anyway, so I lurked outside the door for a while. We saw a fox today on the ride. It rained last night so it looked kinda scraggly and wet. But it was cute nonetheless.

I think I might be starting to find my place here. My project isn't starting until after next week, but it's been going good with everything. Stuff is awesome with the house, even though sometimes I feel out of place with people. I'm starting to get into my routine, even getting up early in the morning!! Life is good. That's the only way I can sum it up.

And the best part is that I'm going to see people this weekend. Lena and Phil and Pat!!! I'm sad Susana couldn't come cuz that woulda been fun. Damn... I miss Pat now... *sigh*

I've started playing this online game. It's a browser game, but it's cool. Jacob got me into it and I got to lvl 7 last night.

yeeeah.... maybe I should go look busy.... *gone*

Rawr!!!
I didn't have to bike in today which was nice. Except now I'm bored. Mirta (the student I am working with) hasn't showed up. I was told by Ivan that she 'had to work at home for a while' so I have been reading all day. Bleh. I thought 'a while' meant till like after lunch, but it's nearly 2. So I think I'm stuck reading for a while. I'm annoyed that this comp doen't have PowerPoint. We have to prepare 5 min talks about our projects for Wednesday and I need to work on mine. I'm scared to mess up though because both Ivan and Mirta will be at the meeting and they both know my project very well. So if I mess something up, it looks really bad cuz they'll know. *sigh* Oh well. I'll just prepare tonight.

*glares at her reading*

Sometimes I wonder if I'm not getting the full experience since I'm not working with one set person. I see everyone else working right with one person and forming these bonds. And I havent really started anything yet. I mean, both Ivan and Mirta and most of the lab will be in Spain for a week soon and I'll be left here doing more prep work and reading. Bleh.

But I'm not unhappy. Not one bit. I like it here a lot. Yes.

This weekend Lena, Phil and Pat are going to visit me!!!!! *dances* It's gonna be fun. We're gonna do fun stuff, etc.

Well... back to work. Ivan will prolly be back from soccer soon and I need to look busy and stuff. Yays.

OK. Bad. I've had that damn song stuck in my head all day.

Anyway... I'm alive. Moved here to Cape Cod on Sunday and met my 6 wonderful housemates. It's a cute house. 2 floors; main and a basement. I'm in the basement with 2 other girls. We have a bathroom and a small kitchen. Fun times. I also bought a used bike. It is very..... pink....

I'm working at the Marine Biological Labs in Woods Hole in the lab of Ivan Valiela. It reminds me of my dad's lab. A man with an all female student lab. *ponders* I've done lots of field work. By that I mean going out on a boat and getting really wet and cold. Also snorkeling and looking at sea grass. Yays. I'm starting on an algae project soon which should be cool. But lots of reading awaits which isn't so nice.

I'm just chillin' here waiting for the person I need to talk to. *sigh* And I was... scared. Ivan's phone was ringing and he's in the next room. And he came in and missed the call twice. And he kinda... looked at my funny and told me to answer it. I was like "*cringe and hide* *small voice* ok...".

Ugh.... i wanna go outside.....

Getting internet on Saturday in the house. Hooray for internet.