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sometimes...
Feb. 3rd, 2006 10:23 pmi wish things were different. sometimes.
nights when i sit. alone. wondering where everyone went.
and then with nothing else to do. i bury myself in work. listlessly shoving my mind full of school. work. trying to forget that people are out there having fun.
it's probably my fault. pushing people away or something. it happens i suppose.
i do have a lot of work to do anyway. might as well spend time getting it done. or something.
also. i wish emotions werent so hard for me to figure out. or even express. then i worry people. i dont like worrying people. sigh. perhaps i am just being dumb.
blah
nights when i sit. alone. wondering where everyone went.
and then with nothing else to do. i bury myself in work. listlessly shoving my mind full of school. work. trying to forget that people are out there having fun.
it's probably my fault. pushing people away or something. it happens i suppose.
i do have a lot of work to do anyway. might as well spend time getting it done. or something.
also. i wish emotions werent so hard for me to figure out. or even express. then i worry people. i dont like worrying people. sigh. perhaps i am just being dumb.
blah
