idle ponderings

It was nice day. Started off with presents. My brother is a little snot and complained that some of his presents weren't exactly what he wanted. That was annoying. But whatever.

Finally got my shit together for the vacation we're leaving on tomorrow. 3 days of skiing... maybe all my random thoughts and doubts can all fly out of my head while i'm trying not to fall down a mountain. And then maybe it'll all make sense.

I feel so emo.. it's kinda lame. My mind is just in a strange place where it's trying to hide from all the thinking I've been doing. It's tiring and part of the reason I'm glad I can finally get away for a few days. I'll have other things to worry about... more normal things... like not dying... or killing someone else with my ski poles. I guess part of the problem is the way I second-guess myself. One second I'm sure I know what I want.. and the next my mind is screaming at me about being stupid.. and everything crumbles all over again. And of course along the way, I can't even sit and concentrate on anything concrete. I'm too busy running circles in my mind.

ugh.

Anyway... I'll be gone till the 30th. If you know my cell.. you know how to reach me. Otherwise... maybe I'll try that nifty txt-post thing...

*shrug*