Well, on the plus side, it can only go up from here...

If you ever find someone who is a bigger idiot than me, be sure to let me know. But it'll be hard. I slept through my history exam today. Y'know, the one I need an A on to get an A in the class? I don't know what's wrong with my lately. I just don't want to wake up in the morning anymore. I just can't do it and Im beginning to hate myself for it because I just feel like a failure. This is the history test that I studied for instead of writing a paper last night. And in the end it didn't matter and my paper is going to be crap now. sigh... I just can't win. Luckily, the teacher said I can take it later this week, but that also means that I'm gonna be graded harder because I have more time to plan the essay part. And that most definitely won't work in my favor because ,y timed writing is really bad. ARGH! I just don't know what to think anymore. My whole planning thing is going down the drain and I'm lacking the motivation to do anything. I mean, look at this weekend. I did nothing. And I mean nothing. I don't think I'm going to be able to continue like this for much longer. And it drives me nuts. I need the semester to be over so I can pick up the abused and tortured pieces of my brain and put everything right again. Lately all I've wanted to do is sit in a corner and cry, but I don't even have the time to do that anymore. I think I need help...