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Carolina ([personal profile] fiarra) wrote2005-09-12 09:54 am
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I don't know what I'm doing anymore...

It's been a weekend of ups and downs.

Yesterday I went to my sister's soccer game. It was cute and they won which made her really happy. But then of course my mother wanted to go to the mall so I could help her pick something out. *sigh* And as a result I was late for work at 5 here at UCONN. Note to self: Leaving the house at 4:15 pm *will* make you late at 5. And on top of that, I didn't get to go to the Asian store for snacks. Maybe someone here at school will want to go... *ponders*

So yeah.. work. I've decided I don't like the call center very much. Not that I don't like it, but I'm used to being social with the people I work with. I like being able to talk as I work and being in the call center means I can't leave for more than a few minutes. Yeah... but it was ok. I just took lots of 'wander around the shop saying hi to people" breaks.

After work, I went with Gerg to Subway and then back to his room to watch Stomp Out Loud, that group that does percussion stuff with random stuff... like brooms... and basketballs. It was amazing. And we spend a good 20 min after with this roommate and friend doing our own version of Stomp in his room. It was pretty funny. Then I got roped into their midnight running session.

Ironically, it was actually pretty fun and I appear to be in better shape than I thought I was. The thing is, if you get me doing anything exercise related, like running and ddr, late at night, I get more energy. *grin* Apparently last night was a baby run though lol. And I finally, after 2 years, learned where the rape trail was and how to get to Celeron and Carriage Apts. Oh the... joy I suppose. This was followed by lying in this big-ass dark field looking up at the stars. As Gerg said "when i pictured coming to college, I never thought it would include lying in a wet field after midnight looking up at the stars".

But... as life usually progresses for me.. the world saw that I was happy and energized... so it went and killed it. Pat confronted me after. In fact... he was standing in my hallway waiting for me to get back. *sigh* Accusations were thrown about... there was yelling. It wasn't pretty. It's ok... I probably deserve to be hated anyway...

[identity profile] crstn85.livejournal.com 2005-09-12 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
you never ever deserve to be hated.

talk to me tonight, i'll be in the room if not at my computer so if you im me it will make a lovely little ringing noise and i'll come running excited to see who wants to talk to me, and then it will be you, and i'll be even more excited! so do that. ok? good. ttyl.

[identity profile] japarican85.livejournal.com 2005-09-12 07:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Hopefully you two will still be able to be friends. It'll be difficult though. Both of you have to make it happen. I wish the both of you luck. And no, you're not hated.

[identity profile] littlekellylee.livejournal.com 2005-09-12 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
i agree with the above. i don't know what's going on, but i'm sure you don't deserve to be hated. tyler and i had probably the worst point in our relationship a few weeks ago and it was absolutely awful...but whether you get through it together or alone, the point is, you'll get through it :) to quote a chick flick, "head up, young person."

hatred

(Anonymous) 2005-09-13 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
hatred lies in the hearts of those who do not know what love is. if they do not know love they shall never be deserving of love. you know nothing of hatred or what it means to "deserve to be hated".
chin up bright, eyes forward, tomorrow is another day and it will be promising. I place upon you the rune of Uruz. It is the most powerful rune i have to offer you since it is mine. take it and know you will be okay.
http://www.magie-und-wirken.de/img/Rune%20ur02.jpg

-the wolf