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Carolina ([personal profile] fiarra) wrote2004-03-05 01:17 am

It's amazing what honesty will do for you.

I feel sigificantly better than I did last night. When I woke up this morning, I knew that it hadn't gone away and by after dinner, I was feeling truly miserable. So I sulked and watched anime because no one was talking to me online and it made me feel lonely. But then I had a talk with my boyfriend (yes THAT was what this was all about) and it helped me lots. I was just being silly I suppose. This whole thing has been hard since I've never been in a relationship before, so I really don't want to be clingy and annoying, but at the same time, I don't know what's right. Plus, I really don't want to mess this up so it's confusing for me. Anyway, I finally told him what was bothering me despite the fact that I wasn't so sure about it, and we had a good talk. That and I cried for the first time in a while. It was odd. But it made me feel so much better because all the emotion just came out and while I'm still a little confused, I know that it'll be alright. All I can say is that despite what he says, he's super-awesome. *nods sagely* yes he is. Anyway, I think I'll be fine and I think I'll be able to survive spring break. Barely, but I should be able to do it.

OK, enough random thought posting. I now present u with a meme gacked from [livejournal.com profile] arria626

*~*~Beginning~*~*
What time is it: 1:54am
What is the date: March 5, 2004

*~*~Info about you~*~*
Full Name: Carolina Constanza Aguila
Age: 18
Sex: female
Birthday: November 15, 1985
Where do you live: Connecticut
Where else have you lived: The Bronx (NYC); Palo Alto, CA
What state: umm.... CT now
What subdivision: Hartford county
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
What school do you go to: University of Connecticut
What is your mascot: Husky doggy!!!
What are your school colors: Blue and White
What year are you: ickle freshman
Nicknames: no one can ever come up with anything I like
Do you have anyother screen names: yes
What are they: I'm not giving them out
Where were you born: The Bronx in NYC
What hospital: umm... Albert Einstein Hospital? i think...
What are your hobbies: watching anime, reading, writing, drawing, fun stuff
Are you religious: not particularly
What religion are you: technically Roman-Catholic
Hair color: Brown
Ever died your hair: No. (dyed is spelled wrong...)
What color: *points to the above*
Hair length: about a third of the way down my back now
Eye color: Brown
Height: 5'4
Weight: HAHA... no
Have any pets: Nope
Whats their names: n/a
Siblings: a brother and a sister
Names and age: Gabriela, 11; Nicolas, 14
What do you fear most in the world: disappointing those who believe in me
What do you regret the most: nothing I can fully explain right now
If you could do anything without consequences, what would it be: ROAD TRIP!!
Do you have braces: I did....
Do you have glasses: yes I have glasses
Are you good at school: I'm pretty good at school. Maybe not so much in history though.
Shoe size: 10

*~*~Favorites~*~*
Car: umm..... one that works?
Color car: I want a forest green car!
Color: Green, silver, and shades of blue
Teacher: Umm.... I don't have a favorite. In high school, definitely Mr.M though
Class: japanese
Day of the week and why: umm.... Wednesday cuz that's anime day
Holiday: definitely Christmas cuz snow is pretty
Season: either spring or fall. Both are so pretty
Month: any month in which you can get away with jeans and a t-shirt
Fruit: I'm an apricot fan actually
Veggie: are olives a veggie?
Sport: I don't pay attention to sports
Sports team: me no watch sports
Male Athlete: i dunno
Female Athlete: again, i dunno
Movie: too many too choose from. LotR, HP, PotC, disney movies...
Actress: don't have one
Actor: ahhh... i can't choose
T.V. show: ack!!! it's the stupid evil black box-type brain-sucking picture display unit!! NOOO!!!
Web site: www.megatokyo.com (awesome webcomic!!)
Food: mmmmmmorientalfood... *droolz*
Drink: Coke or that sparkling apple cider stuff
Band: Linkin Park, Hoobastank, and 3 doors down among others
Male singer: no one?
Female singer: dun have one
Animal: ferrets are super-cool. i want one
Store: Waldenbooks (w00t preferred reader discount!) and Blue Moon (my source for all things mystical)
Video rental store: Blockbuster
E-mail buddy: No one
Joke: How many surrealists does it take to screw in a lightbulb? ... FISH!! (at least i THINK it was surrealists... feel free to correct me)
Saying: "reality is the leading cause of stress" from a keychain I have
Word: MEEP!!
Brand of shoes: um.... comfy ones?
Radio station: anything that doesn't play Hilary Duff, Britney, or 50 cent... oh wait, that's all of them....
Room in your house: my room for sure
Concert you have been to: Never been to a concert...
CD: right now... Meteora ~linkin park
Salad: caesar salad or anything with lots of olives
Meat: umm... meat?
Pizza Topping: OLIVES!!!!
State: California
City: San Fransisco
Lake: None?
Ocean: I love the ocean, period. Any ocean will do thanks.
Place to be: in bed, sleeping
Smell: fresh baked cookies
Sound: is it cheesy if i say my bf's voice? probly...
Taste: mmmmmmfood....
Feeling: contentness with the world
Letter: C
Number: 3, 7, 9, 13, and 33
Book: I'm going to have to say Ender's Game and Speaker for the Dead, both by Orson Scott Card
Vacation spot: Virginia Beach
Grandma: how can u ask this?
Grandpa: both, duh.
Cereal: Kix
Ice cream flavor: raspberry sherbet
Video game: SUPER SMASH BROS!!!
Cookie flavor: mmmmmchocochip.....
Flower: Daffodils

*~*~Not so favorite~*~*
Car: broken ones
Color: umm... oooo pretty colors!!!
Teacher: no comment
Class: calculus
Day of the week and why: mondays sux
Holiday: how can you hate a holiday?
Season: Summer, too humid
Month: July, so damn hot
Sport: Again with the sports?
Sports team: I dunno
Male Athlete: N/A
Female Athlete: N/A
Movie: umm....umm... i dunno
Actress: gah... don't get me started
Actor: meh
T.V. show: *sporx the TV*
Web site: Why would I go to a site I didn't like?
Food: calamari.... it has freaking TENTACLES!!!!
Drink: diet sodas are gross
Band: Blink 182 is irritating
Male singer: no clue
Female singer: *eye twitch* Hilary Duff and Britney Spears
Animal: spiders...
Store: Pottery Barn. Why does my mother seem to think I care about how we decorate the house?
Video rental store: none
E-mail buddy: N/A
Joke: not funny ones?
Saying: *shrug*
Word: i'm an equal-opportunity word user
Brand of shoes: i like shoes
Radio station: most of them
Room in your house: umm.... none?
Concert you have been to: no concerts for me
CD: my n'sync CD
President: *shifty eyes* coughbushcough....
Salad: salad ish yummy
Meat: i dunno...
Pizza Topping: pineapple. it tastes funny...
State: it's too late... i can't even remember them all right now
City: Hartford is the pits... Rising Star my ass.
Lake: no clue
Ocean: I love the ocean!!
Place to be: in class
Smell: skunk smell
Sound: bad music and AIM noises. (worse when both are heard at the same time)
Taste: i dunno
Feeling: loneliness
Letter: G
Number: 4
Book: The Grapes of Wrath... *snore*
Vacation spot: a boring place
Grandma: N/A
Grandpa: N/A
Cereal: Lucky Charms... the marshmallows make me sick

*~*~What do you think of when you hear this~*~*
Banana: split
Bill: and ted's excellent adventure
Britney: ahhhhhh death!!! (no really, that's what i thought)
Lamb: food
Bubba: gump
Victoria: i dunno
Dildo: o.O
Ass: hole
Shadow: making shadow shapes with your hands
Beep Beep: the Roadrunner!!
Moo: cows
Bambi: OMG!!! That movie was sad, but Thumper the bunny rocked!

*~*~Your friends~*~*
Friends: too many to name here
Best friend: I don't really have a favorite
Spend most time with: Susana
Best house: Cristina's house rox
Funniest: Heather C.
Smartest: I don't like classifying people like that
Hottest: haha... i don't go around checking out my friends!
Strongest: hmm... i dunno
Most athletic: definitely susana cuz of her competative streak
Knows you the best: i dunno.
Most outgoing: no clue
Most shy: umm.... too many questions... *spiral eyes*
Always negative: no comment
Which one let the dogs out: huh?
Most trustworthy: I like to think thay all are
Most fun to be with: all of them!!
Biggest flirt: no clue
Best dressed: heh.... NOT ME!!
Best eyes: I never looked...
Most depressed: no comment
One to gossip with: Susana
Sweetest: *shrug* i'm bad at this...
Most annoying: ME *^.^*
Who follows you: I pity anyone who decides to follow me
Who do you follow: No one
Who do you pretend to like but cant stand: no one right now
Do you make friends easily: Not at all. Hard for me to open up.
Are you intimidated by any of your friends: Nope
If u were stranded on a desert island then who, out of your friends, would u want to be there with u: Cristina, cuz she's smart and science prevails over all!! wheeeee
Who do u think would help u the most if u were in trouble: any of them
Who do u think would risk their life to save yours: umm... all of them, i hope..
Who is the most popular: why would u ask this?
Who is the most unpopular: eck go away...
Who do u want to go to college with: i'm already IN college
Who do u wish could be part of your family: i dunno
Who is the biggest junk food junkie: heh heh... me probably
Who would do anything for 1 million bucks: I dunno
Who do u think has the nicest siblings: i don't really associate with my friend's sibs
Who do u think has the nicest mom: i dunno
Who do u think has the nicest dad: i dunno
Who do you have the most inside jokes with: Probably Susana (la la la la la)
*~*~This or That~*~*
Sox or Cubs: eh
Breakfast or Dinner: Dinner
Day or Night: Night
Radio or Cd's: Cd's
Internet or Phone: Internet usually
N'sync or BSB: Eck... none now thanks. But I WAS a BSB fan before...
98 degrees or O town: hahahaha i laugh
Happy or sad: Happy
Guy or girl: Guy
Sexy or Cute: Cute
Tuff or wimpy: Tuff
Strong or weak: Strong
Funny or hilarious: just funny thanks
Summer or winter: Winter (snooooooow)
Love or lust: Love (lust? why would u want that over love?)
Friends or family: Friends
Car or truck: Car
Dog or cat: KITTY!!!!
Give or receive: Give
Sex or no sex: umm... no sex i guess? At least for now... *innocent whistle*
Walk or run: walk
Inside or outside: inside
Up or down: what the hell?
In or out: wheeee!!! (huh?)
Back or front: front seat of the car rox
Hurricane or Tornado: hurricane
Thunder or lightning: lightning is cool
Rain or snow: SNOOOOOOOOOW ish pretty
Hail or sleet: sleet
Sunny or cloudy: sunny
Loud or quiet: quiet
Hard or soft: soft
Mcdonalds or Burger king: McDonald's cuz McFlurries are the shit
Hardee's or Arby's: I don't care
Rebel or goodie goodie: rebel
Coffee or tea: coffee mmmmmmmmmocha...
Coke or pepsi: pepsi
Mr. Pibb or Dr. Pepper: Dr. Pepper
White chocolate or normal chocolate: OMG!!! WHITE CHOCOLATE!!!!
Britney or Christina: ack!! no!!! death!!!!
Black or white: black
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Diary or journal: diary
Writing or typing: writing for sure
Cold or hot: cold
Pen or pencil: pen (ooooo gel pens..)
Candle or insence: candle
Plain paper or lined paper: plain paper for drawing
Blonde or brunette: brunette
Curly or straight: straight
Blanket or sleeping bag: blanket
Shower or bath: bubble bath!!! (i want strawberry scented bath bubbles...)
Body wash or soap: body wash
Purfume or Body spray: body spray all the way (oooo rhymes)
Wal-mart or target: either works for me
American Eagle or Abercrombie: ewwwww..... Abercrombie SUX!!!
Hamburgers or hotdogs: hamburgers
Great america or Universal studios: Why do I care?
Pochahontas or Mulan: pochahontas
Swimmer's ear or ear infection: swimmer's ear
Pop tart or toaster strudels: Strawberry frosted pop-tarts
Chicken or turkey: turkey mmmmmcranberrysauce...
MTV or VH1: neither thanks
Shorts or pants: pants
Tank tops or t-shirts: t-shirts
Mandy moore or Jessica simpson: hahahahaha... no
Spanish or German: Spanish
Rich and dumb or Poor and smart: poor and smart
Markers or colored pencils: both have pretty colors
Boxers or briefs: eh
Nike or Adidas: meh
Mercedes or BMW: one that works
Army or Navy: neither
Orange or grape: orange
Lime or lemon: lime
Striped or plaid: striped
Innie or outie: innie
Hot tub or sauna: hot tub
Land or water: water
Sneeze or cough: sneeze
Skittles or M&M's: Skittles!!!
Truth or dare: truth
East or west: does it matter?
North or south: hahahaha... north or south... i hate when people ask me that.
Letterman or leno: I don't watch either
SNL or mad tv: don't watch
Drummers or guitar players: guitar players

*~*~Which way would you spell it~*~*
Megan or Meghan: Megan
Lacey or Lacy: Lacy
Steven or Stephen: Steven
Kurt or Curt: Kurt
Mark or Marc: Mark
Brandi or Brandy: Brandy
Eric or Erik: Eric
Corrine or Carine: Corrine
Kari or Carrie: Carrie
Jackie or Jackqui: Jackie
Deseray or Desirae: Desirea i suppose
Ashley or Ashleigh: Ashley
Their or there: There
Two, too, or to: too
Here or hear: here

*~*~Love life~*~*
Do you have a crush: not at the moment
Whats his or her name: were you not listening
How old are they: -_-
How long have you liked him or her: *rolls eyes*
If you could kiss anyone in the world, who would it be: ummm..... my boyfriend maybe?
If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be: heheh .... Orlando Bloom
What is the biggest turn off: A cruddy personality
What is the biggest turn on: humor, fun, niceness
Do you prefer being the dumper or the dumpee: having had no experience in the matter...
Do you think there is a person for everyone: i hope so
If yes, do you know who yours is: i dunno
Where is the best place to be kissed: umm.... couldn't say
Where is the most romantic place to take a date: i have no clue...
Do you believe in love at first sight: not at all. how can you love someone who you know nothing about?
Have you ever been in love: now i have
What do you think love is: you shouldn't be able to explain it
Do you have a b/f or g/f: YES!!! *dances*
Do you want one: I have one already
How long have you been together: A month and 2 days
What do you like about your crush or b/f, g/f: he's really nice and sweet and caring and awesome and... i'd keep going, but we would be here for a while...
When was your first kiss: ....... *wibbles*

*~*~Past~*~*
First grade teacher's name: Marge Collins
Last word you said: i don't remember now
Last song you sang: Lucky ~hoobastank
Last meal you ate: chicken, a cheese totilla thing, mashed potatoes and salad
Favorite childhood cartoon: anything disney
What did you hate most about skool: going to class
Last person you flipped off: probably my mom when she wasn't looking
Last song stuck in your head: The song that never ends... *shudder*
What line/verse: the whole darn thing
Last time you were burned: i dunno
How: ...
Last time you bled: earlier today when i was picking at the funny bump thing on my elbow
Favorite game show as a child: Wheel of Fortune

*~*~Present~*~*
What's in your CD player: Meteora ~linkin park
What color sox are you wearing: white (yesterday they had cats with scarves though)
What's under your bed: lofted bed=desk and book shelf under it
What's the weather like: breezy and warm-ish during the day. still cold at night.
What is on your wall calender (i.e. Curious George, Magnetic Poetry): Lord of the Rings!!!!!
What time did you wake up today: 10:45
Did you think it was earlier, later, or on time: earlier


*~*~Future~*~*
Who do you want to marry: no one right now
Are you going to college: I'm in college...
If so, how long do you want to go: haha, i'll probly be here a while getting my science-y degrees...
Where do you want to go: When I was applying, where I am now was the last choice...
What is your career going to be: Scientist, probably doing research
Where are you going to live: how would i know?
How many kids do you want: two
Kids names girls: Madison
Kids names boys: Shawn
Where do you want your honeymoon: somewhere nice
What kind of car will you have: one that works
What kind of house will you have: a nice one?

*~*~Have you ever~*~*
Smoked: no
Been Drunk: nope
Been high: only on life
Done drugs: never
Had sex: no
Skinny dipped: no
Partied until the sun came up: no
Stole: i stole a pen once
Stayed up all night on the internet: nearly, but i always give up and go to sleep instead
Met someone off the internet (in person): nope, not yet
Cried over a guy/girl: yes
Been in a fist fight: no
Been in a cat fight: nope
Wanted to kill someone: god no
Fell off a chair: hahaha yeah
Kissed the same sex: no
Had feelings for the same sex: no
Lap danced: no

*~*~Other~*~*
Do you belive in the horoscopes: a little, but not enough to base my life off it.
Do you like your handwriting: yes
If you could be anybody, who would you be and why: I like being me thanks
What superhero would you be: i dunno
Do you have any piercings: ears
Any tattoos: nope
If so where: ...
If not, where and what do you want: little stars would be cute, but i dunno where
Are you picky: not really
What makes you cry: sad stuff
What makes you mad: mean people
What do you think of Eminem: he's ok
Who do you admire: umm... i dunno
Do you like cartoons: CARTOON NETWORK IS MY HERO!!!!
Do you believe in heaven:
Do you believe in God:
Do you think there is a hell:
Do you believe in the devil:
What is the one place you have to visit before you die: Japan
What did you do today: class and talking online with people
Where do you work: nowhere
Do you even have a job you lazy bum: i ish lazy, yesh i am
Are your 'rents lame: they can be
Do you own a miniskirt: heck no i hate skirts
Do you floss: sometimes
What is the farthest your have traveled: to Chile
Who is a DIVA: ummm....
What kind of shampoo do you use: Dandruff stuff that smells funny
What about conditioner: Herbal Essence
Do you use big words to sound smart: i like big words
When you get mad, do you swear a lot: no, i go rip up pieces of paper
Got milk: no
Do you have a magic 8 ball: no
Name something that comes in threes: ummm ummm ummmmm..... hmm...
Ever worn black nail polish: yes it was fun
Do you have hairy arms: *examines her arms* i guess... i dunno
How many sheets are on your bed: one
Whats under your bed: you already asked that question
Do you have your own tv and vcr: nope
Do you believe in fate: sometimes
Do you see dead people: aaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! *falls over*
Are you a good speller: yesh
What is your lucky charm: my dragon necklace
Why do you drive on a parkway and park on a driveway: why yes i do
Do you like little kids: usually
Are you talented: i think so...
If so, how: *shrugs* maybe i'm just a talent-less hack...
Ever hugged a tree: yes it was fun
Do you watch the weather channel while getting ready in your hotel room on vacation:nope
Do you ever steal anything from hotels: nope
Ever seen a ghost: nope
How about an alien: nope
Do you beleive in either of them: yup yup

~*~Ending~*~
Did you waste any time doing this: a whole heck of a lot of it actually. I should be asleep.
Did you like this survey: not really. why did i bother?
Were you bored: heck yeah
Did you skip any questions: probly
If so, fix them! yeeeeeah..... no
Write another question: How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
What time is it: 3:38am
Say something nice about the person who sent this to you: Someone sent this to me?
DAAAAAAAAAAAMN.... That was much too long. Sleeeeeep!!!

reading.....

[identity profile] xbangittyx.livejournal.com 2004-03-05 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
Another long meme. How do you endure it? I can't stay intrested long enuff to finish something that long.
I hope you get the mail I sent before you leave. I really hope it's not water damaged, b/c the drawing was pencil and I dun want the graphite to get all over. Not that you could tell a diff, b/c u've never seen it. I just don't want it too much worse than it is.
There's 2 letters in the envelope btw. I was really hoping that you'd get them by Wednesday at least. *shakes fists at USPS*
I really hope we get to talk over the break. Don't worry if we don't talk a lot tho. I'll be here.
(wishing I were there)
Try to make the best of it? Please? *huggle*
I hope it turns out to be a lot of fun.
TTYL sweetie...

Re: reading.....

[identity profile] starsparkle333.livejournal.com 2004-03-05 12:35 pm (UTC)(link)
haha... the never-ending meme of DOOOM!!! who says i didn't get bored half-way through? I just decided that since I'd started, I may as well finish.

I still need to go check the mail... I really hope it gets here today. The school mail system is so screwy. *shakes fist at it* But I look forward to when I get it. And you need to stop saying that this picture is bad. I'm sure it's lovely. It means a lot to me, no matter whether you think it's good or not.

I'll definitely call you sometime in the week. (not Wed. tho *^.^*) I'll probably go to the library a couple times too. I'm pretty sure I have overdue stuff that needs to be returned... *shifty eyes* And I'll try to have fun and relax a bit. *huggles* I'll still miss you tho... hope you have a good week and I'll ttyl.

happy hugs

[identity profile] julbee3.livejournal.com 2004-03-05 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
hey sweety every thing is going to be allright ::hugs:: spring break will go by quick try to look forward to the brake. if you need to get out of the house you can allways call me. im glad things are working out ok. lot's o love

Re: happy hugs

[identity profile] starsparkle333.livejournal.com 2004-03-05 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for the hug!! *hugz back* I'm sure it'll go by much quicker than I think is and I'll be trying my best to relax. Thank you!!!!

(Anonymous) 2004-03-12 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
hmmmm ur lucky. usually when i get paranoid my fears are only confirmed and i end up hurt, crying, and otherwise miserable. erm.... *wibble* -_-
~ em ~