It's amazing what honesty will do for you.

[fiarra]

I feel sigificantly better than I did last night. When I woke up this morning, I knew that it hadn't gone away and by after dinner, I was feeling truly miserable. So I sulked and watched anime because no one was talking to me online and it made me feel lonely. But then I had a talk with my boyfriend (yes THAT was what this was all about) and it helped me lots. I was just being silly I suppose. This whole thing has been hard since I've never been in a relationship before, so I really don't want to be clingy and annoying, but at the same time, I don't know what's right. Plus, I really don't want to mess this up so it's confusing for me. Anyway, I finally told him what was bothering me despite the fact that I wasn't so sure about it, and we had a good talk. That and I cried for the first time in a while. It was odd. But it made me feel so much better because all the emotion just came out and while I'm still a little confused, I know that it'll be alright. All I can say is that despite what he says, he's super-awesome. *nods sagely* yes he is. Anyway, I think I'll be fine and I think I'll be able to survive spring break. Barely, but I should be able to do it.

OK, enough random thought posting. I now present u with a meme gacked from arria626

*~*~Beginning~*~*
What time is it: 1:54am
What is the date: March 5, 2004

*~*~Info about you~*~*
Full Name: Carolina Constanza Aguila
Age: 18
Sex: female
Birthday: November 15, 1985
Where do you live: Connecticut
Where else have you lived: The Bronx (NYC); Palo Alto, CA
What state: umm.... CT now
What subdivision: Hartford county
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
What school do you go to: University of Connecticut
What is your mascot: Husky doggy!!!
What are your school colors: Blue and White
What year are you: ickle freshman
Nicknames: no one can ever come up with anything I like
Do you have anyother screen names: yes
What are they: I'm not giving them out
Where were you born: The Bronx in NYC
What hospital: umm... Albert Einstein Hospital? i think...
What are your hobbies: watching anime, reading, writing, drawing, fun stuff
Are you religious: not particularly
What religion are you: technically Roman-Catholic
Hair color: Brown
Ever died your hair: No. (dyed is spelled wrong...)
What color: *points to the above*
Hair length: about a third of the way down my back now
Eye color: Brown
Height: 5'4
Weight: HAHA... no
Have any pets: Nope
Whats their names: n/a
Siblings: a brother and a sister
Names and age: Gabriela, 11; Nicolas, 14
What do you fear most in the world: disappointing those who believe in me
What do you regret the most: nothing I can fully explain right now
If you could do anything without consequences, what would it be: ROAD TRIP!!
Do you have braces: I did....
Do you have glasses: yes I have glasses
Are you good at school: I'm pretty good at school. Maybe not so much in history though.
Shoe size: 10

*~*~Favorites~*~*
Car: umm..... one that works?
Color car: I want a forest green car!
Color: Green, silver, and shades of blue
Teacher: Umm.... I don't have a favorite. In high school, definitely Mr.M though
Class: japanese
Day of the week and why: umm.... Wednesday cuz that's anime day
Holiday: definitely Christmas cuz snow is pretty
Season: either spring or fall. Both are so pretty
Month: any month in which you can get away with jeans and a t-shirt
Fruit: I'm an apricot fan actually
Veggie: are olives a veggie?
Sport: I don't pay attention to sports
Sports team: me no watch sports
Male Athlete: i dunno
Female Athlete: again, i dunno
Movie: too many too choose from. LotR, HP, PotC, disney movies...
Actress: don't have one
Actor: ahhh... i can't choose
T.V. show: ack!!! it's the stupid evil black box-type brain-sucking picture display unit!! NOOO!!!
Web site: www.megatokyo.com (awesome webcomic!!)
Food: mmmmmmorientalfood... *droolz*
Drink: Coke or that sparkling apple cider stuff
Band: Linkin Park, Hoobastank, and 3 doors down among others
Male singer: no one?
Female singer: dun have one
Animal: ferrets are super-cool. i want one
Store: Waldenbooks (w00t preferred reader discount!) and Blue Moon (my source for all things mystical)
Video rental store: Blockbuster
E-mail buddy: No one
Joke: How many surrealists does it take to screw in a lightbulb? ... FISH!! (at least i THINK it was surrealists... feel free to correct me)
Saying: "reality is the leading cause of stress" from a keychain I have
Word: MEEP!!
Brand of shoes: um.... comfy ones?
Radio station: anything that doesn't play Hilary Duff, Britney, or 50 cent... oh wait, that's all of them....
Room in your house: my room for sure
Concert you have been to: Never been to a concert...
CD: right now... Meteora ~linkin park
Salad: caesar salad or anything with lots of olives
Meat: umm... meat?
Pizza Topping: OLIVES!!!!
State: California
City: San Fransisco
Lake: None?
Ocean: I love the ocean, period. Any ocean will do thanks.
Place to be: in bed, sleeping
Smell: fresh baked cookies
Sound: is it cheesy if i say my bf's voice? probly...
Taste: mmmmmmfood....
Feeling: contentness with the world
Letter: C
Number: 3, 7, 9, 13, and 33
Book: I'm going to have to say Ender's Game and Speaker for the Dead, both by Orson Scott Card
Vacation spot: Virginia Beach
Grandma: how can u ask this?
Grandpa: both, duh.
Cereal: Kix
Ice cream flavor: raspberry sherbet
Video game: SUPER SMASH BROS!!!
Cookie flavor: mmmmmchocochip.....
Flower: Daffodils

*~*~Not so favorite~*~*
Car: broken ones
Color: umm... oooo pretty colors!!!
Teacher: no comment
Class: calculus
Day of the week and why: mondays sux
Holiday: how can you hate a holiday?
Season: Summer, too humid
Month: July, so damn hot
Sport: Again with the sports?
Sports team: I dunno
Male Athlete: N/A
Female Athlete: N/A
Movie: umm....umm... i dunno
Actress: gah... don't get me started
Actor: meh
T.V. show: *sporx the TV*
Web site: Why would I go to a site I didn't like?
Food: calamari.... it has freaking TENTACLES!!!!
Drink: diet sodas are gross
Band: Blink 182 is irritating
Male singer: no clue
Female singer: *eye twitch* Hilary Duff and Britney Spears
Animal: spiders...
Store: Pottery Barn. Why does my mother seem to think I care about how we decorate the house?
Video rental store: none
E-mail buddy: N/A
Joke: not funny ones?
Saying: *shrug*
Word: i'm an equal-opportunity word user
Brand of shoes: i like shoes
Radio station: most of them
Room in your house: umm.... none?
Concert you have been to: no concerts for me
CD: my n'sync CD
President: *shifty eyes* coughbushcough....
Salad: salad ish yummy
Meat: i dunno...
Pizza Topping: pineapple. it tastes funny...
State: it's too late... i can't even remember them all right now
City: Hartford is the pits... Rising Star my ass.
Lake: no clue
Ocean: I love the ocean!!
Place to be: in class
Smell: skunk smell
Sound: bad music and AIM noises. (worse when both are heard at the same time)
Taste: i dunno
Feeling: loneliness
Letter: G
Number: 4
Book: The Grapes of Wrath... *snore*
Vacation spot: a boring place
Grandma: N/A
Grandpa: N/A
Cereal: Lucky Charms... the marshmallows make me sick

*~*~What do you think of when you hear this~*~*
Banana: split
Bill: and ted's excellent adventure
Britney: ahhhhhh death!!! (no really, that's what i thought)
Lamb: food
Bubba: gump
Victoria: i dunno
Dildo: o.O
Ass: hole
Shadow: making shadow shapes with your hands
Beep Beep: the Roadrunner!!
Moo: cows
Bambi: OMG!!! That movie was sad, but Thumper the bunny rocked!

*~*~Your friends~*~*
Friends: too many to name here
Best friend: I don't really have a favorite
Spend most time with: Susana
Best house: Cristina's house rox
Funniest: Heather C.
Smartest: I don't like classifying people like that
Hottest: haha... i don't go around checking out my friends!
Strongest: hmm... i dunno
Most athletic: definitely susana cuz of her competative streak
Knows you the best: i dunno.
Most outgoing: no clue
Most shy: umm.... too many questions... *spiral eyes*
Always negative: no comment
Which one let the dogs out: huh?
Most trustworthy: I like to think thay all are
Most fun to be with: all of them!!
Biggest flirt: no clue
Best dressed: heh.... NOT ME!!
Best eyes: I never looked...
Most depressed: no comment
One to gossip with: Susana
Sweetest: *shrug* i'm bad at this...
Most annoying: ME *^.^*
Who follows you: I pity anyone who decides to follow me
Who do you follow: No one
Who do you pretend to like but cant stand: no one right now
Do you make friends easily: Not at all. Hard for me to open up.
Are you intimidated by any of your friends: Nope
If u were stranded on a desert island then who, out of your friends, would u want to be there with u: Cristina, cuz she's smart and science prevails over all!! wheeeee
Who do u think would help u the most if u were in trouble: any of them
Who do u think would risk their life to save yours: umm... all of them, i hope..
Who is the most popular: why would u ask this?
Who is the most unpopular: eck go away...
Who do u want to go to college with: i'm already IN college
Who do u wish could be part of your family: i dunno
Who is the biggest junk food junkie: heh heh... me probably
Who would do anything for 1 million bucks: I dunno
Who do u think has the nicest siblings: i don't really associate with my friend's sibs
Who do u think has the nicest mom: i dunno
Who do u think has the nicest dad: i dunno
Who do you have the most inside jokes with: Probably Susana (la la la la la)
*~*~This or That~*~*
Sox or Cubs: eh
Breakfast or Dinner: Dinner
Day or Night: Night
Radio or Cd's: Cd's
Internet or Phone: Internet usually
N'sync or BSB: Eck... none now thanks. But I WAS a BSB fan before...
98 degrees or O town: hahahaha i laugh
Happy or sad: Happy
Guy or girl: Guy
Sexy or Cute: Cute
Tuff or wimpy: Tuff
Strong or weak: Strong
Funny or hilarious: just funny thanks
Summer or winter: Winter (snooooooow)
Love or lust: Love (lust? why would u want that over love?)
Friends or family: Friends
Car or truck: Car
Dog or cat: KITTY!!!!
Give or receive: Give
Sex or no sex: umm... no sex i guess? At least for now... *innocent whistle*
Walk or run: walk
Inside or outside: inside
Up or down: what the hell?
In or out: wheeee!!! (huh?)
Back or front: front seat of the car rox
Hurricane or Tornado: hurricane
Thunder or lightning: lightning is cool
Rain or snow: SNOOOOOOOOOW ish pretty
Hail or sleet: sleet
Sunny or cloudy: sunny
Loud or quiet: quiet
Hard or soft: soft
Mcdonalds or Burger king: McDonald's cuz McFlurries are the shit
Hardee's or Arby's: I don't care
Rebel or goodie goodie: rebel
Coffee or tea: coffee mmmmmmmmmocha...
Coke or pepsi: pepsi
Mr. Pibb or Dr. Pepper: Dr. Pepper
White chocolate or normal chocolate: OMG!!! WHITE CHOCOLATE!!!!
Britney or Christina: ack!! no!!! death!!!!
Black or white: black
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Diary or journal: diary
Writing or typing: writing for sure
Cold or hot: cold
Pen or pencil: pen (ooooo gel pens..)
Candle or insence: candle
Plain paper or lined paper: plain paper for drawing
Blonde or brunette: brunette
Curly or straight: straight
Blanket or sleeping bag: blanket
Shower or bath: bubble bath!!! (i want strawberry scented bath bubbles...)
Body wash or soap: body wash
Purfume or Body spray: body spray all the way (oooo rhymes)
Wal-mart or target: either works for me
American Eagle or Abercrombie: ewwwww..... Abercrombie SUX!!!
Hamburgers or hotdogs: hamburgers
Great america or Universal studios: Why do I care?
Pochahontas or Mulan: pochahontas
Swimmer's ear or ear infection: swimmer's ear
Pop tart or toaster strudels: Strawberry frosted pop-tarts
Chicken or turkey: turkey mmmmmcranberrysauce...
MTV or VH1: neither thanks
Shorts or pants: pants
Tank tops or t-shirts: t-shirts
Mandy moore or Jessica simpson: hahahahaha... no
Spanish or German: Spanish
Rich and dumb or Poor and smart: poor and smart
Markers or colored pencils: both have pretty colors
Boxers or briefs: eh
Nike or Adidas: meh
Mercedes or BMW: one that works
Army or Navy: neither
Orange or grape: orange
Lime or lemon: lime
Striped or plaid: striped
Innie or outie: innie
Hot tub or sauna: hot tub
Land or water: water
Sneeze or cough: sneeze
Skittles or M&M's: Skittles!!!
Truth or dare: truth
East or west: does it matter?
North or south: hahahaha... north or south... i hate when people ask me that.
Letterman or leno: I don't watch either
SNL or mad tv: don't watch
Drummers or guitar players: guitar players

*~*~Which way would you spell it~*~*
Megan or Meghan: Megan
Lacey or Lacy: Lacy
Steven or Stephen: Steven
Kurt or Curt: Kurt
Mark or Marc: Mark
Brandi or Brandy: Brandy
Eric or Erik: Eric
Corrine or Carine: Corrine
Kari or Carrie: Carrie
Jackie or Jackqui: Jackie
Deseray or Desirae: Desirea i suppose
Ashley or Ashleigh: Ashley
Their or there: There
Two, too, or to: too
Here or hear: here

*~*~Love life~*~*
Do you have a crush: not at the moment
Whats his or her name: were you not listening
How old are they: -_-
How long have you liked him or her: *rolls eyes*
If you could kiss anyone in the world, who would it be: ummm..... my boyfriend maybe?
If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be: heheh .... Orlando Bloom
What is the biggest turn off: A cruddy personality
What is the biggest turn on: humor, fun, niceness
Do you prefer being the dumper or the dumpee: having had no experience in the matter...
Do you think there is a person for everyone: i hope so
If yes, do you know who yours is: i dunno
Where is the best place to be kissed: umm.... couldn't say
Where is the most romantic place to take a date: i have no clue...
Do you believe in love at first sight: not at all. how can you love someone who you know nothing about?
Have you ever been in love: now i have
What do you think love is: you shouldn't be able to explain it
Do you have a b/f or g/f: YES!!! *dances*
Do you want one: I have one already
How long have you been together: A month and 2 days
What do you like about your crush or b/f, g/f: he's really nice and sweet and caring and awesome and... i'd keep going, but we would be here for a while...
When was your first kiss: ....... *wibbles*

*~*~Past~*~*
First grade teacher's name: Marge Collins
Last word you said: i don't remember now
Last song you sang: Lucky ~hoobastank
Last meal you ate: chicken, a cheese totilla thing, mashed potatoes and salad
Favorite childhood cartoon: anything disney
What did you hate most about skool: going to class
Last person you flipped off: probably my mom when she wasn't looking
Last song stuck in your head: The song that never ends... *shudder*
What line/verse: the whole darn thing
Last time you were burned: i dunno
How: ...
Last time you bled: earlier today when i was picking at the funny bump thing on my elbow
Favorite game show as a child: Wheel of Fortune

*~*~Present~*~*
What's in your CD player: Meteora ~linkin park
What color sox are you wearing: white (yesterday they had cats with scarves though)
What's under your bed: lofted bed=desk and book shelf under it
What's the weather like: breezy and warm-ish during the day. still cold at night.
What is on your wall calender (i.e. Curious George, Magnetic Poetry): Lord of the Rings!!!!!
What time did you wake up today: 10:45
Did you think it was earlier, later, or on time: earlier


*~*~Future~*~*
Who do you want to marry: no one right now
Are you going to college: I'm in college...
If so, how long do you want to go: haha, i'll probly be here a while getting my science-y degrees...
Where do you want to go: When I was applying, where I am now was the last choice...
What is your career going to be: Scientist, probably doing research
Where are you going to live: how would i know?
How many kids do you want: two
Kids names girls: Madison
Kids names boys: Shawn
Where do you want your honeymoon: somewhere nice
What kind of car will you have: one that works
What kind of house will you have: a nice one?

*~*~Have you ever~*~*
Smoked: no
Been Drunk: nope
Been high: only on life
Done drugs: never
Had sex: no
Skinny dipped: no
Partied until the sun came up: no
Stole: i stole a pen once
Stayed up all night on the internet: nearly, but i always give up and go to sleep instead
Met someone off the internet (in person): nope, not yet
Cried over a guy/girl: yes
Been in a fist fight: no
Been in a cat fight: nope
Wanted to kill someone: god no
Fell off a chair: hahaha yeah
Kissed the same sex: no
Had feelings for the same sex: no
Lap danced: no

*~*~Other~*~*
Do you belive in the horoscopes: a little, but not enough to base my life off it.
Do you like your handwriting: yes
If you could be anybody, who would you be and why: I like being me thanks
What superhero would you be: i dunno
Do you have any piercings: ears
Any tattoos: nope
If so where: ...
If not, where and what do you want: little stars would be cute, but i dunno where
Are you picky: not really
What makes you cry: sad stuff
What makes you mad: mean people
What do you think of Eminem: he's ok
Who do you admire: umm... i dunno
Do you like cartoons: CARTOON NETWORK IS MY HERO!!!!
Do you believe in heaven:
Do you believe in God:
Do you think there is a hell:
Do you believe in the devil:
What is the one place you have to visit before you die: Japan
What did you do today: class and talking online with people
Where do you work: nowhere
Do you even have a job you lazy bum: i ish lazy, yesh i am
Are your 'rents lame: they can be
Do you own a miniskirt: heck no i hate skirts
Do you floss: sometimes
What is the farthest your have traveled: to Chile
Who is a DIVA: ummm....
What kind of shampoo do you use: Dandruff stuff that smells funny
What about conditioner: Herbal Essence
Do you use big words to sound smart: i like big words
When you get mad, do you swear a lot: no, i go rip up pieces of paper
Got milk: no
Do you have a magic 8 ball: no
Name something that comes in threes: ummm ummm ummmmm..... hmm...
Ever worn black nail polish: yes it was fun
Do you have hairy arms: *examines her arms* i guess... i dunno
How many sheets are on your bed: one
Whats under your bed: you already asked that question
Do you have your own tv and vcr: nope
Do you believe in fate: sometimes
Do you see dead people: aaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! *falls over*
Are you a good speller: yesh
What is your lucky charm: my dragon necklace
Why do you drive on a parkway and park on a driveway: why yes i do
Do you like little kids: usually
Are you talented: i think so...
If so, how: *shrugs* maybe i'm just a talent-less hack...
Ever hugged a tree: yes it was fun
Do you watch the weather channel while getting ready in your hotel room on vacation:nope
Do you ever steal anything from hotels: nope
Ever seen a ghost: nope
How about an alien: nope
Do you beleive in either of them: yup yup

~*~Ending~*~
Did you waste any time doing this: a whole heck of a lot of it actually. I should be asleep.
Did you like this survey: not really. why did i bother?
Were you bored: heck yeah
Did you skip any questions: probly
If so, fix them! yeeeeeah..... no
Write another question: How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
What time is it: 3:38am
Say something nice about the person who sent this to you: Someone sent this to me?
DAAAAAAAAAAAMN.... That was much too long. Sleeeeeep!!!