What happened?

[fiarra]

These past few days... I feel like I'm back at the beginning of last semester. Overwhelmed, helpless... I go through the motions... go to class. go to work. sleep. eat. But meanwhile all I want to do is sit in the corner and sob... or rip up pieces of paper... or something.

I have no more classes than I did last semester but they take up more time. I have 8 hours of work a day. Anime club is still there being stressful for reasons unknown to me. The highlights of my week are being with Pat, work, chem lab and anime club. I don't even know.

I've been listening obssessively to the O-Zone cd for some reason. It's not like it's great music... it's just bright, light, and it's in some weird language that I don't understand so I can just listen to the flow of words. (i think it's romanian? something like that).

I just want to be free. Here at UCONN and free of all class/work/club obligations for a while. I tried to plan my schedule for the next 2 years because some classes are offered only one semester alternate years. I'll have to do any study abroad in the summer. I need to find a summer research position. I need to finish my honors requirements. I need to get nothing lower than a B- this semester.

I wish things were easy sometimes...

I want to draw but everyone is already in bed... Maybe I can try anyway...

Comments

[japarican85.livejournal.com]

I've been listening to O-Zone as well.

Personally, I wouldn't want to be "free" at Uconn. I'd be bored to death... unless I can get the cows to play with me, but that's an entirely different story (I'm joking)

Do you need people awake to draw?

[phlipp.livejournal.com]

Surely you're more of an overachiever then someone who can settle for a B-. Btw why can't you just do the same research job you do last summer?

And remember, if life was easy, anybody could do it...