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Sometimes....
I don't know what's wrong with me? Why can I never stay happy for any long period of time. That's all I want to know. Who am I kidding? I'm just a stupid whiny spoiled little bratty girl who can't see the good around her. Not that it stops me.
Gah... The past couple days... I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I can't call home without getting annoyed with my parents and crying during and after the call... Sometimes I feel like I don't have anything in common with my friends anymore. Lena is joining her sorority, Susana just parties and hangs out with the party people, Heather's busy with band... I'm not online as much because I'm usually hanging out with Pat or doing work. Marianne is never around. I've lost interest in school... Chem sucks, Ecology isn't a interesting as I thought it would be, stats is not even a class in my mind and japanese is just really hard. I can't make myself work but I feel myself slipping. if I slip I get yelled at. And all in the middle of this I'm trying to deal with being a relationship with someone else. And half the time my mind is spinning and the other half I'm just drifting.
And I feel stupid for feeling bad because I have no reason to. I ought to be happy. These are supposed to be the best years of my life or something....
I think I'll just go cry myself to sleep instead....
Gah... The past couple days... I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I can't call home without getting annoyed with my parents and crying during and after the call... Sometimes I feel like I don't have anything in common with my friends anymore. Lena is joining her sorority, Susana just parties and hangs out with the party people, Heather's busy with band... I'm not online as much because I'm usually hanging out with Pat or doing work. Marianne is never around. I've lost interest in school... Chem sucks, Ecology isn't a interesting as I thought it would be, stats is not even a class in my mind and japanese is just really hard. I can't make myself work but I feel myself slipping. if I slip I get yelled at. And all in the middle of this I'm trying to deal with being a relationship with someone else. And half the time my mind is spinning and the other half I'm just drifting.
And I feel stupid for feeling bad because I have no reason to. I ought to be happy. These are supposed to be the best years of my life or something....
I think I'll just go cry myself to sleep instead....