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It's the small things...
So my last real update was Monday night after the Oodishon incident. Bleh...
Yesterday was gross. It was rainy and yucky. I hate rain. I didn't go to ecology lecture. I stayed in and studied japanese instead for my exam in the afternoon. It sucked. On the plus side though, it was one of the first organic chem lectures I stayed awake and engaged in. I think knowing what was going on and how to disect the info we are given has really helped me in that class. And it's all thanks to my dear Cypher. That afternoon I had my Japanese exam. It left me in quite a foul mood. I only got through it because the prof walked me through each question's meaning before I answered any of them. It sucked. By the time I got back to my dorm I wanted to sob in frustration. And then I was reading Joe's LJ and how he finally hooked up with this girl he met while we were still together. I didn't bother me really. Just... put me in a weird mood I guess, so I was really happy when Pat got back from class.
He showed up late so Marianne had already left with Tyler. And since I was in a weird mood, I was more inclined to be cuddly. It happens. We ended up both being so sleepy and lazy that he just stayed over. It was cute. My theory that you can't fit 2 people to sleep in one of the dorm beds was thus-ly disproved. And before anyone says anything... yes all we did was sleep. *sweatdrop* Much relaxing and being comfy was accomplished, but alas sound sleep was not to be had. Oh well. It was... different at least. But not in a bad way at all. *grin*
So today I woke up quite happy and such. Went to stats where I could feel brain cells dying. All the usual crap. Marianne and I took our class to the art museum for class. It's nice in there. Some very good art. I liked it a lot. I'll need to go back at some point. Pat surprised me by showing up with Chinese food for dinner. It was oh so good. And very sweet of him as well.
Then anime club with all the fun stuff we show there. And now I can recount the first major miscommunication/misunderstanding for Pat and I.
Well it all started with Ping Pong Club which I don't like. Pat wanted to watch it with me there, but I didn't want too. Plus, I wanted to talk to Jessica because she seemed really cool (which she was by the way ^^ *waves*). But he was kinda hurt by the fact that I left and didn't "sacrifice to be with him". Which is valid in my mind as something I could do. I mean... he did watch Tokyo Mew Mew with me... So I didn't realize that he was upset until he like refused to come near me. Like.. no holding hands... no hugs.... nothing.... This coming from a person who is *always* near me when we are together. And I find that comforting, so finding that gone was a major blow for me. So we got back to the dorm and he just refused to do anything besides turn away. I got his help carrying stuff and he just kinda put everything down, waved bye and left. So I'm sitting at my desk wondering what the hell just happened. So we talked a bit on AIM which had the result of leaving me a sobbing mess at my desk. Because when I care about someone, the worst thing that they can do is say that I hurt or disappointed them. So there we were... both upset. Him upset because of the perceived snub, me upset because of how he was acting after. So we had a long talk outside in the cold.
I think we're going to be just fine. Communication is key, kids. yes it is. Actually... he told me that after our long talk about fights and misunderstandings and how to deal with them together that in that moment he liked me more than ever. And yes.. the L-word was brought into the conversation. I like the feeling of security I get with him. Basically, I think we're both in this for the commintment. It's weird like whoa. But in a good way. And yes... I said the L-word back. And it's just so... weird saying it to someone in their face. *sighs* Life loves me... yes it does. It likes to make things easy for me... On that note... I will stop analyzing this where people I know will read it and comment to me about it later.
And this entry was a hell of a lot longer than intended. I really need to sleep as it is now 4am and I have class at 11. *sigh* soooo sleeeeeepy.... but happy too ^^
Yesterday was gross. It was rainy and yucky. I hate rain. I didn't go to ecology lecture. I stayed in and studied japanese instead for my exam in the afternoon. It sucked. On the plus side though, it was one of the first organic chem lectures I stayed awake and engaged in. I think knowing what was going on and how to disect the info we are given has really helped me in that class. And it's all thanks to my dear Cypher. That afternoon I had my Japanese exam. It left me in quite a foul mood. I only got through it because the prof walked me through each question's meaning before I answered any of them. It sucked. By the time I got back to my dorm I wanted to sob in frustration. And then I was reading Joe's LJ and how he finally hooked up with this girl he met while we were still together. I didn't bother me really. Just... put me in a weird mood I guess, so I was really happy when Pat got back from class.
He showed up late so Marianne had already left with Tyler. And since I was in a weird mood, I was more inclined to be cuddly. It happens. We ended up both being so sleepy and lazy that he just stayed over. It was cute. My theory that you can't fit 2 people to sleep in one of the dorm beds was thus-ly disproved. And before anyone says anything... yes all we did was sleep. *sweatdrop* Much relaxing and being comfy was accomplished, but alas sound sleep was not to be had. Oh well. It was... different at least. But not in a bad way at all. *grin*
So today I woke up quite happy and such. Went to stats where I could feel brain cells dying. All the usual crap. Marianne and I took our class to the art museum for class. It's nice in there. Some very good art. I liked it a lot. I'll need to go back at some point. Pat surprised me by showing up with Chinese food for dinner. It was oh so good. And very sweet of him as well.
Then anime club with all the fun stuff we show there. And now I can recount the first major miscommunication/misunderstanding for Pat and I.
Well it all started with Ping Pong Club which I don't like. Pat wanted to watch it with me there, but I didn't want too. Plus, I wanted to talk to Jessica because she seemed really cool (which she was by the way ^^ *waves*). But he was kinda hurt by the fact that I left and didn't "sacrifice to be with him". Which is valid in my mind as something I could do. I mean... he did watch Tokyo Mew Mew with me... So I didn't realize that he was upset until he like refused to come near me. Like.. no holding hands... no hugs.... nothing.... This coming from a person who is *always* near me when we are together. And I find that comforting, so finding that gone was a major blow for me. So we got back to the dorm and he just refused to do anything besides turn away. I got his help carrying stuff and he just kinda put everything down, waved bye and left. So I'm sitting at my desk wondering what the hell just happened. So we talked a bit on AIM which had the result of leaving me a sobbing mess at my desk. Because when I care about someone, the worst thing that they can do is say that I hurt or disappointed them. So there we were... both upset. Him upset because of the perceived snub, me upset because of how he was acting after. So we had a long talk outside in the cold.
I think we're going to be just fine. Communication is key, kids. yes it is. Actually... he told me that after our long talk about fights and misunderstandings and how to deal with them together that in that moment he liked me more than ever. And yes.. the L-word was brought into the conversation. I like the feeling of security I get with him. Basically, I think we're both in this for the commintment. It's weird like whoa. But in a good way. And yes... I said the L-word back. And it's just so... weird saying it to someone in their face. *sighs* Life loves me... yes it does. It likes to make things easy for me... On that note... I will stop analyzing this where people I know will read it and comment to me about it later.
And this entry was a hell of a lot longer than intended. I really need to sleep as it is now 4am and I have class at 11. *sigh* soooo sleeeeeepy.... but happy too ^^
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You and I are going through a certain phase in life that we are not used to. This phase makes both of us happy, right? The last thing either of us would want to do is upset/disappoint the other person. Whenever it happens and before the problem is resolved, it feels as though the world has just come crashing down... Sugarcult - "Crashing Down" just came to mind, o.O
Good luck and have fun. That is most important, for me anyways.
Sorry the reply was long and I kinda talked about myself. Being bored at work will do that to you. >_>
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Everyone goes through phases. And yes... it makes us both happy. And it's for the sake of that happiness that some sacrifice must be made. It may feel like the end of the world, but you have to remember that just because it feels that way, it isn't neccisarily so. (spelling..)
And yes... having fun is key as well.
I like long comments. Not a problem
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