fiarra | Meh...

It's odd and annoying how my mood took a definite downturn after I got back from buying books. And it's not even because of the whole book buying ordeal which would makemore sense. I think it's the heat. It makes me droopy and sad and wilt-y. Like my insides just melted and made it all squishy inside..... ok that sounds gross, but it's the truth. It's like it suddenly hit me that I'm starting this whole school thing again and despite the fact that I want school, at the same time it makes me sad. More distant from people or something. I dunno... maybe I'm just weird.

Well... anyway, I got through the day alright. Went to the Honors thing which was just a waste of my time. Stupid people. My revenge... I took the pencil. Mwahaha... or something. Then hanging out alone. Dinner with the old roomie and Heather. Another meeting. Meh

And this song isn't helping at all... but I like it so I suppose it will stay on repeat for now. I think I need to go to bed and sleep it off.. Of course it'll be lonely because Marianne is at her boyfriend's. Oh well... let the school year begin then!!

(an hour later) I think I figured out part of why I've been upset today. It's gonna be a long and lonely night. *goes to cry self to sleep*