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You don't want to make me mad. I get angry when I'm mad ~Grim Adventures of Billy+Mandy
Kinda boring day today. I did get to bleed mice though, which it turns out I'm actually good at. It doesn't require holding the mice which is what I'm really bad at. And we don't like mouse bites. (Ick... the centrifuge sitting next to me smells really bad...) But after the tail bleeding, it was just washing and condensing the cells which don't interest me much. Pity really. It only goes to show what my true interest in science is I guess. Spiderman 2 time in an hour and a half though so all will be well. Should be fun.
And now for the daily dose of wibbling and random introspection....
So I was thinking last night about apologies and what I do when I receive them. I mean, people only say their sorry when I've said or done something to indicate annoyance or anger. And I guess with that way that I hold stuff inside... it doesn't get to that point all that often. I suppose it's safe to say that if someone knows I'm annoyed, it's probably for a good reason. But then what happens when someone tries to make it better? I shrug it off and say it's ok. I don't do well with apologies obviously. I'm not quite sure why it happens that way though... Is it some misguided attempt to be self-sufficient? That can't be right. I know somewhere deep down that I depend on others more than I should. So shouldn't I be glad that people try to make things better for me when I need it? I guess it doesn't really work that way... And it's ironic. When I get a sorry for something that's happened, I say it's ok and play down my annoyance... but it's still there. I know it's still there, waiting to come out again. And maybe in the end, rather than helping me, all this holding back stuff hurts me more than it helps me in the long run. *sigh* I dunno anymore. I thought I had a point going, but I think I lost it somewhere between my brain and fingers. I need to think about this more.
Meh.. I'm done...
And now for the daily dose of wibbling and random introspection....
So I was thinking last night about apologies and what I do when I receive them. I mean, people only say their sorry when I've said or done something to indicate annoyance or anger. And I guess with that way that I hold stuff inside... it doesn't get to that point all that often. I suppose it's safe to say that if someone knows I'm annoyed, it's probably for a good reason. But then what happens when someone tries to make it better? I shrug it off and say it's ok. I don't do well with apologies obviously. I'm not quite sure why it happens that way though... Is it some misguided attempt to be self-sufficient? That can't be right. I know somewhere deep down that I depend on others more than I should. So shouldn't I be glad that people try to make things better for me when I need it? I guess it doesn't really work that way... And it's ironic. When I get a sorry for something that's happened, I say it's ok and play down my annoyance... but it's still there. I know it's still there, waiting to come out again. And maybe in the end, rather than helping me, all this holding back stuff hurts me more than it helps me in the long run. *sigh* I dunno anymore. I thought I had a point going, but I think I lost it somewhere between my brain and fingers. I need to think about this more.
Meh.. I'm done...