An ending of sorts....

[fiarra]

Yeah.. So my room is now packed.... clean.... empty... It's werid. After this I guess I won't be around updating and stuff... At least for a couple weeks until I maybe get internet or give in and walk to the library. Yeah....

I feel really annoyed with myself though. And mad at the simple fact that I can't even make myself be awake to say bye to one of the most important people to me right now. When my phone rang and woke me up I knew it was 11 and that I had already missed him. I felt like I needed today... but because I'm obviously incapable of getting up, I didn't get it. Heh, this isn't even a final bye or anything. We can still keep in contact thru letters... mail... stuff... but it's not the same. I got used to the constant contact. I think that scares me a little bit. Finding myself to be so emotionally attatched and dependent on him. It leaves me open and vulnerable in this completely different way. Not that I'd change it... It just scares me a little. I dunno... this is hard. I feel drained... and my eyes are all puffy and bloodshot from too much crying... *sigh* I ought to go now...

(Sorry about that... I needed to get it out somewhere. See everyone is a few weeks or so)

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[crstn85.livejournal.com]

ok, so you probably won't read this until you get to my house, but I expect to see you very soon, if not tonight then tomorrow, and there will be updating and emailing followed by hanging out and fun-ness. yay. so don't worry be happy!
*walks away humming*

[starsparkle333.livejournal.com]

Yaaaaaaaay!!!!!

Darn right we're gonna hang out a lot. (like yesterday *^.^*)

*hums a song too*