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You are Rikku. Wo0t.
Which Final Fantasy X Character Are You?
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*ponders* I know nothing about FF, so I can't say much about this. I just gacked it and took it. *shrugs* I like her hair.... *pets it*
In other news... We also discovered tonight that my boyfriend and I use the same font for AIM. And oddly enough, we never discussed this or anything. The only difference is that I use pale ice blue on a black background and he uses dark blue on a grey background. It's not even that common a font either. It's 12 pt. book antiqua in bold italic. I mean, what are the odds? And after much pondering, we decided that it was spiffy and amusing. Ah, my life. Will the oddness ever end? No... that's not oddness... it's coolness.
I confuse myself sometimes and I don't like it. I hate how I never feel like I ever really tell people fully what I think. I get close, but I always back down at the last second from giving the full emotion. Even to myself. I just block it back from ever showing. I hate knowing that if I want to tell someone something, I can only do it freely in a letter or other writing rather than directly to them when I'll get an immediate reaction. Is it fear? Is it insecurity? Is it just my stupidity? I don't know. But I think I want to find out and soon because it's been bothering me quite a bit lately. I feel like I don't open up enough. I have to promise myself to make the effort. I have to. And I know I can if I try. (there goes my optimism talking.) But as for right now, I need sleep. And tomorrow, I think I have to write a very special letter. It'll have to do for now. At least until I figure this all out.
Good night everyone!!
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Plz don't hit me? =P
As far as telling your feelings goes...
I think, for some people, it's easiest to start with someone you are close to and work up to other people. For some others, it is easier to tell a complete stranger (that you will most likely NEVER see again) how you feel and work on in to the closer people when you get comfortable telling the strangers.
I think, how I did it, was I started with my family at about age 15-16. I was able to tell anyone anything just before I turned 18. So I guess it does take time. You have to be honest with yourself before you can be honest with other people. Emotions included.
ACK! Am I babbling?
I'll TTYL
ja ne
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And the feelings bit? yeah... I do to much weird thinking late at night and it all comes out in garbled LJ entries that never really solve anything... but you weren't babbling... I just need time i guess... ttyl!!