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Carolina ([personal profile] fiarra) wrote2009-06-10 02:23 am

destiny man. destiny

I decided partway through work today that I'm going a bit loopy. xD Normally I'm all energetic, but since it was an evening shift, I was feeling all off my game. Easily distracted, fidgety, the works. I took one couple to their table and they were like "oh this is where we sat last time". My answer? "I guess it's just destiny". I got the weirdest look before I just.. wandered away. And the whole way back to the front all I could think about was Merlin and whether there is something wrong with me. ahahaha.

oh! I had a strange dream last night. It's been coming back to me in bits and pieces. It was prom for some reason. I had a really pretty and floofy white halter dress. We all gathered at a friend's house (incidentally said friend was a girl I knew in high school but was never actually friends with) and we were going to surprise her by all being there? Except that I was the only person to jump out and yell surprise in the end. And then they all left while I was trying to get ready in a really confusing bathroom. So by the time I was done, I was alone in this house and I was really upset. So I called.. my house I think to be like "I hate this I wanna go home". Except then somehow I got there anyway and I had fun while totally ignoring all my friends because they made me feel alone and unwanted. ..I feel like there was more but I don't remember the specifics now.

Weeeird...

I am listening to Coldplay and all I can think about is Cape Cod and driving along the shore on the way to the lab... ocean breeze whirling around us in the car. That was a great summer. We had a great group in the house, even if I felt like I didn't quite connect as well as I might have. I really need to work on coming out of my shell around people. If I can't do that, then my grad school years are going to end up becoming quite lonesome. xD

In the mail I have coming: Star Trek Poster. complete set of Burger King Trek glasses. Both will be coming with me. I just want them to get here so I can stare at them!

And last random tangent of the night. I started reading The Looking Glass Wars. It's going to be a quick read. Not surprising since it's a YA book and I read at an insane speed once I get into something. It's pretty good so far but I'm a bit wary on the writing at the moment? Like something is throwing me off and I can't quite figure it out. We'll see how that affects me as the book progresses.

ps- I LIED. ONE MORE THING THAT I DONT SAY ENOUGH. I FREAKING LOVE EVERYONE ON MY FRIENDS LIST!! <333 Srsly, the thought just crossed my mind and I really just needed to get that out there.

[identity profile] tmchiba.livejournal.com 2009-06-10 11:56 am (UTC)(link)
You mentioned destiny in showing someone to their table? See to me that's awesome, that's not a bad thing, that's a good thing.

:P


It was a weirdddd day yesterday across the world I think.

[identity profile] starsparkle333.livejournal.com 2009-06-10 06:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Haha everytime someone is like "Oh I sat here before" I end up muttering something about destiny and it being meant-to-be. It mostly just gets me weird looks and I feel awkward about being a dork.

[identity profile] tmchiba.livejournal.com 2009-06-10 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Dorks win though. :)

[identity profile] starsparkle333.livejournal.com 2009-06-11 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
Hm. good point. They do.

I will henceforth be more comfortable about telling people about their epic table destiny.

[identity profile] silver-youko.livejournal.com 2009-06-10 02:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I LOVE YOU TOO! Haha
And keep me posted on the books. Though I suppose if the writing isn't as bad as Twilight and its a good plot I'll charge through them anyway.

[identity profile] starsparkle333.livejournal.com 2009-06-10 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
*flails* <3!!!

Haha as I read them I'll keep leaving my comments about them. The writing is nowhere near as bad as Twilight though! Having read a bit further, I feel like perhaps the writing is lacking some sort of emotion for me. Like I'm reading all these battle scenes but it's feeling a bit clinical right now. We'll see how that changes as this is all mostly setting up for the main point right now anyway.

[identity profile] brightlightss.livejournal.com 2009-06-11 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
OMG, I LOVE YOU MOST.

No, really. :P

[identity profile] starsparkle333.livejournal.com 2009-06-11 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
YOU CANT HAVE A MONOPOLY ON THE LOVE. So... umm.. NYAH!

Hee. <3