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that's cute.. in a grandma sort of way...
*sigh* Fun times for dinner and hanging out with Susana, Heather and Kirsten. Kinda blah after for unrelated reasons. Whatever, I'll get over it. Feeling rather ambivalent towards the whole thing at the moment. It happens. I'm upset, then it spirls down into the "fuck it, i shouldnt care anyway *pushes emotions into the corner of mind*"
*shrug* Still no chemicals for me to work with. Still have no idea how to dilute everything down. Asked Heather, she wasnt sure. Asked Milton, he oversimplified it and skipped the steps that were confusing me and made me feel stupid. So I went home. Stupid chemicals. Stupid math. meh.
Been following the craziness of the![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
charlottelennox and MsScribe stuff. It's oddly fascinating. The internets is a scary, strange place. All the mess was going on right around the time I started paying attention to the HP fandom. Discovered fanfic, discovered UR.net, fictionalley, sugarquill. Kinda like the whole jark thing on DevArt, I find myself following the whole thing rather closely. Following links, reading the entire charlottelennox telling. People are strange.
Am bored. Have been studying GRE words. Starting with the 333 frequently used word list. Working on A. *sigh*
collegeguy184 did this meme. He didn't tag me.. but I'm just listless enough to sit here mindlessly and do something like this.
RULES:
1. Bold what is true about you
2. Italicize what you wish were true
3. Add something true about you to the end of the list
4. Tag five friends
Any comments in parenthesis after the line
Let the fun begin!
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books. (Far too many, I need to look through them and see what I still need to read)
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games. (sometimes)
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies. (once or twice, weirded me out, havent since then)
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (I suppose I was, kinda. Depends what they mean by psycho)
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy. (It usually is.. but I'm not above lying about something small to avoid larger drama over small things)
* I curse sometimes. As opposed to constantly.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (maybe... doubt it)
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (i wish i were that interesting...)
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi. // Never had it. (yum)
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning. (does anyone?)
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look. (heh..)
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings. (*sighs*)
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate. (i'm curious if they're thinking slept as in had sex or just slept)
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends. (took a while to think on this. i know lots of people, but the number of people i really consider my friends are very few)
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone. (would make life easier, but the phone just annoys me)
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (very musch so)
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before. (there was this time in 5th grade...)
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (i've known since 3rd grade)
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before. (talked to the police yes, and maybe not a good friend, more like an acquiantance. then subsequently lost one of my good friends)
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn. (doesnt everyone?)
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved. (i have at least 20)
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (sometimes)
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex. (ah, the other half of the reason i lost a close friend. *sigh*)
* I am happy at this moment. (*angst angst angst* i'm working on it)
* I'm obsessed with guys. // Perhaps a few, but not all men in general.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish. (the image has always fascinated me, but i couldnt pull it off)
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time. (college has made me into a slacker)
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job(s). (despite my whining, i love the lab and resnet is awesome cuz of the people)
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge. (bungee jumping anyone?)
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument. (clarinet... only kinda since i havent practiced in a while)
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state. (sometimes i wish i werent at uconn)
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in. (ive kept a written journal since middle school and i have them all in my room)
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (*coughsurveycough*)
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (fortune cookie fortunes FTW)
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist. (i like to pretend)
* I am ambidextrous. (i tried to train myself to write left handed... it almost worked)
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (*heart*)
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (guilty as charged)
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries. (new york: 1-3, california: 3-11, connecticut: 11-now)
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are not pleased or seem not pleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. (manga...)
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent. (us and chile)
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (many times)
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish. (tha t would be amazing...)
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest. (confronted with a sudden question i will always answer honestly without a thought. i'm a terrible lier)
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me. (always wear the same jewelry)
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing. (i spend my drives to uconn singing along to my cds)
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (so many projects get started and never finished)
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (only sometimes tho,and its never the actions because i like where i am now, i would just approach the general events a little differently)
* I wish I could do high school all over again.
* I wish I could change how my heart feels sometimes.
* I wish I was personally financially secure and didn't have to depend on my parents.
* I want to be smarter.
* I constantly daydream stories about my friends and I want to write them down to get them published.
* I need chocolate and orgasm.
* My dreams are more real than real life.
* Some experiences of my life are so surreal, I'm unsure as to whether I really just dreamed them or not.
* I can be surrounded by people and yet feel completely alone, though I can be completely alone and know that I'm not.
* I am my own worst enemy.
* Even though I love to lead, I usually end up following.
* I watch anime.
* I am/was a terrible boy/girl friend and dont/didnt deserve what I have/had. (this is up for debate)
* My parents accept my sexual orientation.
* I don't like having to take pictures at public events because I feel like everyone's looking at me
*shrug* Still no chemicals for me to work with. Still have no idea how to dilute everything down. Asked Heather, she wasnt sure. Asked Milton, he oversimplified it and skipped the steps that were confusing me and made me feel stupid. So I went home. Stupid chemicals. Stupid math. meh.
Been following the craziness of the
charlottelennox and MsScribe stuff. It's oddly fascinating. The internets is a scary, strange place. All the mess was going on right around the time I started paying attention to the HP fandom. Discovered fanfic, discovered UR.net, fictionalley, sugarquill. Kinda like the whole jark thing on DevArt, I find myself following the whole thing rather closely. Following links, reading the entire charlottelennox telling. People are strange.Am bored. Have been studying GRE words. Starting with the 333 frequently used word list. Working on A. *sigh*
collegeguy184 did this meme. He didn't tag me.. but I'm just listless enough to sit here mindlessly and do something like this.RULES:
1. Bold what is true about you
2. Italicize what you wish were true
3. Add something true about you to the end of the list
Any comments in parenthesis after the line
Let the fun begin!
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books. (Far too many, I need to look through them and see what I still need to read)
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games. (sometimes)
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies. (once or twice, weirded me out, havent since then)
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (I suppose I was, kinda. Depends what they mean by psycho)
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy. (It usually is.. but I'm not above lying about something small to avoid larger drama over small things)
* I curse sometimes. As opposed to constantly.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (maybe... doubt it)
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (i wish i were that interesting...)
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi. // Never had it. (yum)
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning. (does anyone?)
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look. (heh..)
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings. (*sighs*)
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate. (i'm curious if they're thinking slept as in had sex or just slept)
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends. (took a while to think on this. i know lots of people, but the number of people i really consider my friends are very few)
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone. (would make life easier, but the phone just annoys me)
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (very musch so)
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before. (there was this time in 5th grade...)
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (i've known since 3rd grade)
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before. (talked to the police yes, and maybe not a good friend, more like an acquiantance. then subsequently lost one of my good friends)
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn. (doesnt everyone?)
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved. (i have at least 20)
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (sometimes)
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex. (ah, the other half of the reason i lost a close friend. *sigh*)
* I am happy at this moment. (*angst angst angst* i'm working on it)
* I'm obsessed with guys. // Perhaps a few, but not all men in general.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish. (the image has always fascinated me, but i couldnt pull it off)
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time. (college has made me into a slacker)
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job(s). (despite my whining, i love the lab and resnet is awesome cuz of the people)
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge. (bungee jumping anyone?)
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument. (clarinet... only kinda since i havent practiced in a while)
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state. (sometimes i wish i werent at uconn)
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in. (ive kept a written journal since middle school and i have them all in my room)
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (*coughsurveycough*)
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (fortune cookie fortunes FTW)
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist. (i like to pretend)
* I am ambidextrous. (i tried to train myself to write left handed... it almost worked)
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (*heart*)
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (guilty as charged)
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries. (new york: 1-3, california: 3-11, connecticut: 11-now)
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are not pleased or seem not pleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. (manga...)
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent. (us and chile)
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (many times)
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish. (tha t would be amazing...)
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest. (confronted with a sudden question i will always answer honestly without a thought. i'm a terrible lier)
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me. (always wear the same jewelry)
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing. (i spend my drives to uconn singing along to my cds)
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (so many projects get started and never finished)
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (only sometimes tho,and its never the actions because i like where i am now, i would just approach the general events a little differently)
* I wish I could do high school all over again.
* I wish I could change how my heart feels sometimes.
* I wish I was personally financially secure and didn't have to depend on my parents.
* I want to be smarter.
* I constantly daydream stories about my friends and I want to write them down to get them published.
* I need chocolate and orgasm.
* My dreams are more real than real life.
* Some experiences of my life are so surreal, I'm unsure as to whether I really just dreamed them or not.
* I can be surrounded by people and yet feel completely alone, though I can be completely alone and know that I'm not.
* I am my own worst enemy.
* Even though I love to lead, I usually end up following.
* I watch anime.
* I am/was a terrible boy/girl friend and dont/didnt deserve what I have/had. (this is up for debate)
* My parents accept my sexual orientation.
* I don't like having to take pictures at public events because I feel like everyone's looking at me