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I would have thought that after last week, this week would be easy and stress-free. I should know by now that I'm never that lucky. At least it's been getting nicer out so it's relaxing to walk to class.
Signed up for housing on Monday. I'm going to be in South C next year with Susana, Kate and Andrea. That should be fun with a suite and 3 fun people. Jacob signed up yesterday. He didn't get into south, instead he's going to stay in Towers... all the way across campus from south... I would be lying if I said that this didn't upset me. It's my last year at UCONN and it's going to suck having to haul myself across campus to hang out. Especially since I know I'm going to be busy next year with class, work, thesis writing, grad school prep. *sigh* But what's done is done, all I can do is deal with the results for now.
And with all this, he's been uber-stressed and I'm just kinda here and lost through it all. As a result, I had some really unsettling dreams last night that have left me feeling somewhat disoriented this morning.
Dreams: I vaguely remember that I was going to visit some friends somewhere and I think Jacob wasn't going to come with me. While there, I remember sitting and watching this old guy making a cobblestone path. He had a path of little pebbles and was smoothing larger flat rocks over them. But there was one part of the path that no matter what he did, it would always be slanted and indented. He explained to me some of the issues with it and I helped him put in the last piece. And then I remember walking along a similar path that went across a lake and just kinda being alone. But it wasn't comforting aloneness cuz I couldn't see anything near me and I just wanted to find the end. Finally I found myself in some sort of basement room. Alone again. And talking to Jacob and him telling me that it wasn't working out and that he was breaking up with me. And I was just confused and knew that I had to keep hiding in this room.. alone.
And then I woke up. And all that stress and panic and aloneness in my dreams is now going to make it a very long day of awakeness.
It's the first time in a while that I've remembered my dreams. I'm not sure why, I rarely remember them and I kinda wish the pattern had stayed true last night. *sigh*
I get to meet with Prof. DeGuise today at noon to talk about summer work. Hopefully I'll be able to work something out with him so I can get my honor's thesis research done. My dad's been on my case about it so I really need to get my act together.
I also have my classes for next semester all lined up. I'll be taking:
Inorganic Chemistry
The Short Story (with the prof who inspired Dead Poet's Society!)
Biology of Algae (graduate level)
Invertebrate Bio
Seminar in Current Issues in Ecology and Evo. Bio.
General Problems in Physics
And now it's time for class....
Signed up for housing on Monday. I'm going to be in South C next year with Susana, Kate and Andrea. That should be fun with a suite and 3 fun people. Jacob signed up yesterday. He didn't get into south, instead he's going to stay in Towers... all the way across campus from south... I would be lying if I said that this didn't upset me. It's my last year at UCONN and it's going to suck having to haul myself across campus to hang out. Especially since I know I'm going to be busy next year with class, work, thesis writing, grad school prep. *sigh* But what's done is done, all I can do is deal with the results for now.
And with all this, he's been uber-stressed and I'm just kinda here and lost through it all. As a result, I had some really unsettling dreams last night that have left me feeling somewhat disoriented this morning.
Dreams: I vaguely remember that I was going to visit some friends somewhere and I think Jacob wasn't going to come with me. While there, I remember sitting and watching this old guy making a cobblestone path. He had a path of little pebbles and was smoothing larger flat rocks over them. But there was one part of the path that no matter what he did, it would always be slanted and indented. He explained to me some of the issues with it and I helped him put in the last piece. And then I remember walking along a similar path that went across a lake and just kinda being alone. But it wasn't comforting aloneness cuz I couldn't see anything near me and I just wanted to find the end. Finally I found myself in some sort of basement room. Alone again. And talking to Jacob and him telling me that it wasn't working out and that he was breaking up with me. And I was just confused and knew that I had to keep hiding in this room.. alone.
And then I woke up. And all that stress and panic and aloneness in my dreams is now going to make it a very long day of awakeness.
It's the first time in a while that I've remembered my dreams. I'm not sure why, I rarely remember them and I kinda wish the pattern had stayed true last night. *sigh*
I get to meet with Prof. DeGuise today at noon to talk about summer work. Hopefully I'll be able to work something out with him so I can get my honor's thesis research done. My dad's been on my case about it so I really need to get my act together.
I also have my classes for next semester all lined up. I'll be taking:
Inorganic Chemistry
The Short Story (with the prof who inspired Dead Poet's Society!)
Biology of Algae (graduate level)
Invertebrate Bio
Seminar in Current Issues in Ecology and Evo. Bio.
General Problems in Physics
And now it's time for class....
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