End of Semester...

[fiarra]

Wow. Just wow... It's the end of the semester. Break starts tomorrow. And I'm not happy. Why? I suppose some end of semester reflection is in order....

Exams went well. A in anthro. Probably an A- in Marine Bio. Hopefully a B in genetics or there will be no honors credit for me... And plant bio... where with 100 on the final, the highest possible was a C-... *sigh* I really hope I passed....

I can't quite pinpoint it I guess. It doesn't feel like the end of the semester. Usually by the end I'm ready to go home, I'm sick of school. But that was Thanksgiving break for me. And since then, things have just gone up. It feels wrong to be going home when things are going so good. Like it's risking something bad happening... I know it's a silly thought, but it's nagging me. And as a result I'm feeling down.

Home doesn't feel like home anymore. Here, surrounded by random stuff in my dorm room listening to music seems more like home. Hanging out with friends and just being silly feels more like home. Where I'm going tomorrow is my house. With inside jokes and experiences I don't understand anymore... Part of growing up I suppose. I was talking to Susana about this the other day. We were talking about x-mas and how neither of us don't have anything that we *want* for presents... And it occured to me... does that mean we grew up? We're no longer the little kids who say "I want a pony". *sigh* How depressing...

I dunno. I feel silly now. Silly but down. Maybe I'm just resisting the need to pack all my stuff. I hate packing. They need to invent something that lets you like, clap your hands and have everything fits into a very small box. and then to unpack you push a button on the box and it all snaps to where it belongs.

It's wrong. I don't know why I have such a bad feeling... like ominous almost.... *shrug* whatever.

I should probably pack, I'm too busy to be mopey...

Comments

[arashikitsune.livejournal.com]

I've been having similar thoughts, actually.
"Home" is college. I'm just going back to my house.
Last year at this time, I would have been dying to go home, but now I have friends up here, and it seems so much more right to be here than to be anywhere else, you know?
I also had a similar problem with the Christmas presents thing...not having anything that I *really* wanted. *sighs* I think it just might be that we're not as excited about it anymore. Christmas just isn't as shiny and sparkly as it used to be. But there are other things we enjoy now, so it evens out. ^.^

*psst* I hate packing too. ^.^; And it sounds like you need something the equivolent of a Marry Poppins' bag. If I ever find one, I'll let you know. ^.~

Other than that, keep your hopes up! Just think, in *only* a month you will be back here with all of your crazy friends again! *grins* I know I'm looking forward to it, aren't you. :D

Heheee. ^.^

*hands you blue cupcakes*

*scampers off*

[starsparkle333.livejournal.com]

I think lots of people have been having similar thoughts... it seems like once you find your place somewhere it becomes like home. so it would feel wrong to be forced to leave for a little bit.

and christmas *really* isn't as shiny... and it kinda sucks...

and i'm definitely looking forward to getting back to school to all you crazy people. we need to go nighttime wandering sometime.

*munches happily on blue cupcakes*

[(Anonymous)]

Home is where you feel most comfortable eh? I was here all summer as well due to grad work, so I've been basically here at this dorm for more than a year continuously now, with some breaks going home to sleep on the couch because my bed was used as a storage device.

So maybe now home isn't where your parents/family are... but where *you* are.

Um... *point* that was me...

[yeoua.livejournal.com]

And I so totally forgot to sign in before writing that... woops.

Re: Um... *point* that was me...

[starsparkle333.livejournal.com]

wow.. alan actually commented and reads this...

I would agree with what you said. Home was become what we all make of it. That whole growing up thing... Maybe for some people it still is where their family is, but not for me anymore.

=)