fiarra | It's been a while

Bleh. I'm feeling rather aimless and listless at the moment. I'm sitting alone in Steve's room updating cuz everyone else went to go get the car and I didn't want to go out into the cold. It's all good. Basically Pat and I are joining Steve and his friends at Steve's house for gaming and anime. Yeeah.. And then we're coming back to UCONN Sat night. Which is nice and should be fun.

Things have been... weird. And I don't know what to make of them. Last night was fun though. Jacob, Justin, Jessica and I all went out to the barns and we got to see and pet one of the little piglets. It was cold, but fun. I like visiting the cows and getting away from the lights and stuff of campus. We even heard a bunch of coyotes off in the distance. It was amazing.

I dunno. I think I have things figured out, and then they're not. On a good note, we're being offered a retake on the plant bio exam I failed with flying colors on Monday. So... lots more studying for meeeee.

So I was sitting in Pat's room thinking about everything that has happened this week. Stuff with Pat and Steve hasn't been so great lately and I was feeling kinda bad about it. Stupid things, jealously, it all comes back to bite us in the end. Luckily it seems thinks have worked out since then. But I was thinking about it, and it's not quite fair.

This next part might sound somewhat sketch and I'd like to note that this deosn't mean anything is going on between me and anyone else. I guess I just feel resentful. Like Pat is restricting who I deal with, who I'm allowed to see. I know he'd rather not see me be with anyone else, but who is he to decide whether or not I can spend time with someone. I mean.. hell if he wanted to go out with one of my friends I wouldn't be happy about it, but who am I to tell anyone what they can and can't do.

And I guess that's what's been bothering me the most. But i gotta go.. sooo away!