It's going to be a long night

[fiarra]

I have chips, salsa and a bottle of coke. Hardcore reading to get done, but first.. an update.

I just realized that today marks exactly one month that I've been here at school. August 18th I walked into my dorm room with all my stuff, ready to start a new year. And here I am... my world so totally turned upside down. It's crazy. I'd never thought so much could happen.

Schoolwise I have some issues. Personal matters, relationships, everything have all been making me feel no desire to apply myself to my studies. An issue that I'm going to fix tonight. 4 chapters of genetics reading ahoy!

ResNet has never been better. I've reached the point where I can call a lot of the people I work with friends. It's awesome. And despite the boringness of the call center...I'm loving it. I think that should I decide to stay on with this place next semester... I *might* try for Tier 3... Hah. Ambitious I know, what with my current tech skills... But, no one says I can't try. It's one of those things where I know I should be able to do it, but it will take a lot of work. =) Carolina, Fight!

But still lots of confusion. Questions left unanswered. Crazy shit has gone down recently and I'm still wondering what to make of it. And all I can do is talk to those involved, but that's hard. I dislike confrontation and direct questions. A downfall of mine. A fear of being rejected, being told no. Being told that everything I think is futile in the end. So it keeps me from asking. *sigh* Yeah... Funtastical thoughtful times for me. *facepalm* I can't help but think I do this all to myself with the whole overanalyzing things.. but I can't help it. It's what I do.

A side effect of my own personality. I hide. I conceal. It's a rare thing to see my mask drop at all. I know other people do it too to a certain extent. And it makes me try and figure out what other people are thinking. Gah.

And this isn't helping me read... perhaps I should just drink some soda then go back to this reading.

I just need to know...

Comments

[phlipp.livejournal.com]

It's funny because you talk of soda like other people talk of beer :) Anyways, swing for the fences! Go to parties and make out with random guys! Enjoy being single! Or as my friend says, lick the battery!

[starsparkle333.livejournal.com]

soda is awesome i won't stand your slandering of it! =P

lol

mm... batteries.... "batteries are not a drink" (refer to panda z ep 2)

[emmyceru.livejournal.com]

you most definitly should go for tier III. padma has said the same thing over and over again, that people skills aren't as easy to learn as technical knowledge. anyone can learn tech stuff, dealing with people is a totally different thing. and you seem to deal with people quite well, so i can totally see you doing that.