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nananananananana... RESNET!
Right then. Well... still training and working. But it's all good. This weekend just isn't going to be fun. Friday I'm supposed to be in the call center from 9-9... I fear for my sanity. Like seriously. I plan to ask people from the RECs to call me first to ask for backup. That's a very isolated job... can't move around. I might die. Then Saturday I'm 9-9 at Northwest.... then the same time in Shippee. Oh my god. death.
but as Padma says.. "be peppy!" *runs around grinning* I'm thinking that by 3pm my pep will be pure desperation... *sigh* But it's ok. I've come to find that I like computers more and more and want to learn about them. Like... programming... o_O;; oh well. i'll deal.
I'm realized something. I'm the type of person who has to be the best at everything i do. Like running anime club, taking exams, working at resnet... etc. A big part of what I want in my life is to prove to myself that I have the capability to do things at the best I can. Paired with my independent streak.... well.... I dunno. I need to do a lot of thinking. This isn't fun. Priorities are hard to get straight and I'm trying really hard to just get away. I feel like if I hadn't had to deal with all the crap this summer in the house it would have been ok somewhat. I would have had time to think about myself. *ponders*
I'm trying... *deep breath*
It's been a crazy week. I've been like, super hyper all the time. Forcing myself to look happy to not worry others? Maybe. At any rate, ultimately I'm the only person I can turn to. Again.. independence.
i need to stop rambling....
ps- Two nights ago I sat for 25 min with the lyrics to The Ketchup Song (http://www.lyricsstyle.com/l/lasketchup/theketchupsong.html) open on my computer and the song on repeat. I know it by heart now... I don't think I'll ever get it out of my head....
but as Padma says.. "be peppy!" *runs around grinning* I'm thinking that by 3pm my pep will be pure desperation... *sigh* But it's ok. I've come to find that I like computers more and more and want to learn about them. Like... programming... o_O;; oh well. i'll deal.
I'm realized something. I'm the type of person who has to be the best at everything i do. Like running anime club, taking exams, working at resnet... etc. A big part of what I want in my life is to prove to myself that I have the capability to do things at the best I can. Paired with my independent streak.... well.... I dunno. I need to do a lot of thinking. This isn't fun. Priorities are hard to get straight and I'm trying really hard to just get away. I feel like if I hadn't had to deal with all the crap this summer in the house it would have been ok somewhat. I would have had time to think about myself. *ponders*
I'm trying... *deep breath*
It's been a crazy week. I've been like, super hyper all the time. Forcing myself to look happy to not worry others? Maybe. At any rate, ultimately I'm the only person I can turn to. Again.. independence.
i need to stop rambling....
ps- Two nights ago I sat for 25 min with the lyrics to The Ketchup Song (http://www.lyricsstyle.com/l/lasketchup/theketchupsong.html) open on my computer and the song on repeat. I know it by heart now... I don't think I'll ever get it out of my head....
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i love me some ketchup song, yes indeed.
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