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Oh the irony
My day could not have taken a sharper turn. I am now officailly pissed off at the world. I have spent the last 5 minutes ripping a piece of paper in to tiny bits in an effort to not scream and break something. I talked to my mother for the first time since Sunday. It sucked. I wanted it to be quick and I realized that she doesn't remember my stuff at all. She already forgot the amazing test scores I got last week and I almost snapped when she made a acted scandalized at my B+ on the psychology midterm. Apparently my dad wasn't home. He was out to dinner, probably with someone who came to lecture at the health center. She kept asking me questions and asking what homecoming was. Unfortunately I misunderstood and thought she was asking for a schedule. So I snapped at her because she was being horrible about me misuderstanding. Apparentely tempers have run high at my house this week what with the painters being really slow with their work. So of course I get all the crap about how horrible her life is. So I said bye soon after and now I'm pissed off.
My entire life I have been the one to get all the crap from her. She's pissed, I know. She's unhappy because she's getting no help with the house work, guess who has to do the work at the expense of studying. She's mad at my dad, guess who knows? I hate it. I have enough problems in my life, I don't need hers as well. And I was so happy with my life today. I should have just not called, but I hadn't contacted home all week. I just wanted to know that I was still needed at home. That people wanted me there. Instead all I got was a chewing out and a chilly reception. Oh God, now I'm gonna cry. I can feel it. Sorry this is so angsty. It just feels so wrong. I bust my ass off, get a B+, get a less than satisfactory response for it from my mother (scandalized "a B+!!!!"), and the feeling that I'm not needed at home except to be the resident venting platform. I hate my life. I'm gonna do my math homework now. Maybe doing something logical, cold and emotionless will clear my mind a bit. I hope so. I don;t need this right now.
My entire life I have been the one to get all the crap from her. She's pissed, I know. She's unhappy because she's getting no help with the house work, guess who has to do the work at the expense of studying. She's mad at my dad, guess who knows? I hate it. I have enough problems in my life, I don't need hers as well. And I was so happy with my life today. I should have just not called, but I hadn't contacted home all week. I just wanted to know that I was still needed at home. That people wanted me there. Instead all I got was a chewing out and a chilly reception. Oh God, now I'm gonna cry. I can feel it. Sorry this is so angsty. It just feels so wrong. I bust my ass off, get a B+, get a less than satisfactory response for it from my mother (scandalized "a B+!!!!"), and the feeling that I'm not needed at home except to be the resident venting platform. I hate my life. I'm gonna do my math homework now. Maybe doing something logical, cold and emotionless will clear my mind a bit. I hope so. I don;t need this right now.