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All science day!!!
Yup.. Tuesdays I have only my ecology lecture and then a few hours later I have my organic chem lecture. My ecology class is in the same room as my hellish history class so it has negative connotations. But it's ok because just from the first lecture I can tell that it's going to be really interesting. No problems staying awake for me. I'm kinda glad I didn't take the writing intensive version though. It sounds scary. I'm still terrified of organic chem. The professor is young and likes to joke around which is nice. But I don't remember much about chem and today he was talking about orbitals and I don't remember how to do that stuff. I hope that works out ok.
Once again Raz helped make me be sane again. Good friend but I kinda hope he considers me the same cuz otherwise it would be sad. It's been an odd couple of days. Too much emotional turmoil and as a result I have been acting more with my emotions rather than my brain which should be doing all the thinking. And I don't forsee it getting better. Basically I just feel kind of alone. I mean, I've always felt that way but I tend to shove it to the back of my mind so I don't worry about it. But the feeling's been coming back and making me depressed. It's really a pity that the thing I'm most afraid of it ending up all alone in the end, and I'm already partway there it feels... I hate being weak. But sometimes I just can't do anything about it I guess. And so my life goes on.
And now Marianne's boyfriend is here and they're being all cute and coupley and I can see them out of the corner of my eye. This isn't helping me feel better....
(edit) Oh good they left to go to his apartment. Not this makes me feel any more un-alone either... damnit what's wrong with me!!
Once again Raz helped make me be sane again. Good friend but I kinda hope he considers me the same cuz otherwise it would be sad. It's been an odd couple of days. Too much emotional turmoil and as a result I have been acting more with my emotions rather than my brain which should be doing all the thinking. And I don't forsee it getting better. Basically I just feel kind of alone. I mean, I've always felt that way but I tend to shove it to the back of my mind so I don't worry about it. But the feeling's been coming back and making me depressed. It's really a pity that the thing I'm most afraid of it ending up all alone in the end, and I'm already partway there it feels... I hate being weak. But sometimes I just can't do anything about it I guess. And so my life goes on.
And now Marianne's boyfriend is here and they're being all cute and coupley and I can see them out of the corner of my eye. This isn't helping me feel better....
(edit) Oh good they left to go to his apartment. Not this makes me feel any more un-alone either... damnit what's wrong with me!!