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And thus it begins again....
Meh. That one word sums up my entire day today up to this point. I'm bored, listless, annoyed, sad, and lonely all at the same time and it leaves me with the urge to break something into a million tiny pieces. The urge to mulitilate some unsuspecting inanimate object beyond the point of repair. I can't even pin-point a specific reason for it. Just... all the little things that happened today have compressed themselves into a little ball of rage and hate inside of me.
I woke up today at 11 and actually got up. It was open house today and I'd signed up to leave my door open so any visitors who wandered up here in the afternoon could come in to poke around and ask questions. Remind me to never do that again. Interaction with people I don't know... *shudders* It was horrible. I felt like I was in a zoo the whole day and it made me irritable. Especially when the people would walk past the door, look at me and the room as they passed, not respond to a smile and then stop just beyond the door to peer into the room. As if I couldn't see them!!! *sigh* Not fun. It also kept interrupting me because I would finally start doing something, or finally have a decent convo going on AIM, and then people would come in and I'd have to drop it.
Yeah... so I'm going to Latin Fest tonight. yay?? I dunno anymore. I originally hadn't planned to go, but I'm a sucker and let Susana talk me into buying a ticket. A ticket that cost $25... I guess maybe I'm not all that enthusiastic. I don't even know the person who is performing. I guess it's gonna be like a performance with dancing and stuff. I don't know how to dance salsa... I'm so screwed. Plus, I will be wearing shoes with heels and my black pants. Have I ever mentioned that I despise dressing up? Well, I do. Guess what I'm supposed to be doing right at this instant? I have to leave in half an hour and I'm still wearing jeans and a t-shirt. Meh. Why am I bothering??? Hopefully my yucky mood goes away when I get there. That's really why I don't want to go. I'm still vaguely upset and it's affecting my view of the evening. Gah. I think I need to go get ready. Won't be back till after 2 am I guess since that's when it's supposed to end. *sigh* And away I go.
(wow... pessimism... it's been a long day and it doesn't look to be getting any shorter for a while. *wibble*)
I woke up today at 11 and actually got up. It was open house today and I'd signed up to leave my door open so any visitors who wandered up here in the afternoon could come in to poke around and ask questions. Remind me to never do that again. Interaction with people I don't know... *shudders* It was horrible. I felt like I was in a zoo the whole day and it made me irritable. Especially when the people would walk past the door, look at me and the room as they passed, not respond to a smile and then stop just beyond the door to peer into the room. As if I couldn't see them!!! *sigh* Not fun. It also kept interrupting me because I would finally start doing something, or finally have a decent convo going on AIM, and then people would come in and I'd have to drop it.
Yeah... so I'm going to Latin Fest tonight. yay?? I dunno anymore. I originally hadn't planned to go, but I'm a sucker and let Susana talk me into buying a ticket. A ticket that cost $25... I guess maybe I'm not all that enthusiastic. I don't even know the person who is performing. I guess it's gonna be like a performance with dancing and stuff. I don't know how to dance salsa... I'm so screwed. Plus, I will be wearing shoes with heels and my black pants. Have I ever mentioned that I despise dressing up? Well, I do. Guess what I'm supposed to be doing right at this instant? I have to leave in half an hour and I'm still wearing jeans and a t-shirt. Meh. Why am I bothering??? Hopefully my yucky mood goes away when I get there. That's really why I don't want to go. I'm still vaguely upset and it's affecting my view of the evening. Gah. I think I need to go get ready. Won't be back till after 2 am I guess since that's when it's supposed to end. *sigh* And away I go.
(wow... pessimism... it's been a long day and it doesn't look to be getting any shorter for a while. *wibble*)