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Oy vey....
This weekend was... I don't even think I can really express how bad it was for me. Friday wasn't bad because I babysat so I wasn't home all that much. It was Saturday when the torment began. I woke up in the morning to my mother yelling very loudly at my sister for something or other. (I later found out it was because she was wearing her school clothes and didn't want to change.) So, I went back to sleep. I woke up a second time at 1:30 (much too late), again to hear my mother screaming at my sister. I wished I could just go back to sleep, but I really needed to work, so I had to get up. I count myself lucky that I didn't walk out of my room earlier because just as I was about to open the door, my mom threw something out the door of the bathroom and I woulda been hit if I'd walked out then. Turned out, my mom had left cleaning powder stuff all over the bathroom so my sister could clean it, but my sister didn't get the hint and left it all there. So, my mom was pissed. I spent the rest of the day in my room, music on loud, trying to shut out the house.
I don't feel welcome in my house anymore. It's like I don't belong. Example: my dad makes lunch on Saturday and goes to tell everyone but me that it is ready. So, confused, I walk into the kitchen to say hi, and I see 4 settings on the table. Four... There are 5 people in my family. I wanted to cry. All I could think was, am i not part of this household anymore? I did end up eating, but only after I walked in and my dad realized that I was expecting some food.
Today also sucked. I was in my room again. Got pissed off at my sister because she kept asking me if we could watch Fruits Basket. I'm looking at all the work all over my desk and I wanted to hit her. Inconsiderate brat... and no I don't mean it just because of that one instance. She really is a spoiled brat, being the youngest and all. Too bad her grades are going down and my parents are none too happy with her. Eh... off to work and forget about the family for now.
I don't feel welcome in my house anymore. It's like I don't belong. Example: my dad makes lunch on Saturday and goes to tell everyone but me that it is ready. So, confused, I walk into the kitchen to say hi, and I see 4 settings on the table. Four... There are 5 people in my family. I wanted to cry. All I could think was, am i not part of this household anymore? I did end up eating, but only after I walked in and my dad realized that I was expecting some food.
Today also sucked. I was in my room again. Got pissed off at my sister because she kept asking me if we could watch Fruits Basket. I'm looking at all the work all over my desk and I wanted to hit her. Inconsiderate brat... and no I don't mean it just because of that one instance. She really is a spoiled brat, being the youngest and all. Too bad her grades are going down and my parents are none too happy with her. Eh... off to work and forget about the family for now.