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It's easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb,,,,
I feel like I've been run through a meat grinder, spat out and then stepped on. What started out as a long day turned craptasitc real fast and still haven't recovered...
It started with me getting up, doing work, going to class, doing work, going to class and then doing work. That's more work than I've done in a while because I've gotten really lazy.
Then I called home only to be my answered by my sister who sounded like she'd been crying. Turns out the my day went to the hospital after he had complained about stomach pain. Turns out he has gall bladder problems and they're gonna have to operate and everything. She didn't know much, so I called my mom who was at the hospital. He's going to have to stay there for a week or more and I'm feeling really lost right now. My other problem was that since they start tomorrow, my mom wasn't going to be able to pick me up to bring me home, which I hated. So she called a family friend who lives up here so I could get home. I mentioned to her that I always have lunch with my friends so I didn't want to leave at 1:30 like was being planned. That was when she began taking out here stress on me. I was very distressingly accused of not caring enough and being selfish. Then she accused me of only wanting to come home this weekend because it happens to be my friend's birthday. (which had been the last thing on my mind) Needless to say, I was very upset.
My problem is that I needed my time to deal with everything that's going on. To do so, I need people who actually listen to me and let me talk things out instead of getting frustrated with me and yelling. I think I'm better now, but I was hysterical earlier. It's never enough, no matter what I do. And I care for my family so much and I know that my mom is just stressed, but there was no reason for her to take it out on me. None at all. I hope everything will be ok....
PS-Thanks so much to all my friends for listening earlier tonight. It meant a lot to me, even if it was just listening... (and even if most of u people don't even read this) Special thanks goes out to Bangitty (who listened even though we've only know each other online for about a week), Kirsten (who called me), Lena (who listened) and Cristina (for being super-awesome as usual-pika pika me!!)
I need to go to bed....
It started with me getting up, doing work, going to class, doing work, going to class and then doing work. That's more work than I've done in a while because I've gotten really lazy.
Then I called home only to be my answered by my sister who sounded like she'd been crying. Turns out the my day went to the hospital after he had complained about stomach pain. Turns out he has gall bladder problems and they're gonna have to operate and everything. She didn't know much, so I called my mom who was at the hospital. He's going to have to stay there for a week or more and I'm feeling really lost right now. My other problem was that since they start tomorrow, my mom wasn't going to be able to pick me up to bring me home, which I hated. So she called a family friend who lives up here so I could get home. I mentioned to her that I always have lunch with my friends so I didn't want to leave at 1:30 like was being planned. That was when she began taking out here stress on me. I was very distressingly accused of not caring enough and being selfish. Then she accused me of only wanting to come home this weekend because it happens to be my friend's birthday. (which had been the last thing on my mind) Needless to say, I was very upset.
My problem is that I needed my time to deal with everything that's going on. To do so, I need people who actually listen to me and let me talk things out instead of getting frustrated with me and yelling. I think I'm better now, but I was hysterical earlier. It's never enough, no matter what I do. And I care for my family so much and I know that my mom is just stressed, but there was no reason for her to take it out on me. None at all. I hope everything will be ok....
PS-Thanks so much to all my friends for listening earlier tonight. It meant a lot to me, even if it was just listening... (and even if most of u people don't even read this) Special thanks goes out to Bangitty (who listened even though we've only know each other online for about a week), Kirsten (who called me), Lena (who listened) and Cristina (for being super-awesome as usual-pika pika me!!)
I need to go to bed....