Hi. My name is Carolina...

[fiarra]

This just in folks. All those times my parents would say mean and petty things about my hobbies (namely anime and manga), they weren't making fun of me or being mocking. Oh no... They were simply trying to "open my eyes" to how it's all just an addiction. Also... they're just trying to help me get better.

Welcome to my life.

So I'm moving on Monday. To a place that isn't my house where my family is. I'm still not really sure what I'm thinking about the entire thing. On the one hand... things like the above statement make me want to get away and not look back. But then I stop to look around my room at everything and think about what it means to leave. And so maybe I'm not like... never coming back. But constantly hearing "the day you leave, this isn't your room anymore" shakes me up a lot more than I try to let on. Maybe it's just cuz I feel like I'm engrained myself so completely into this room that I can't imagine it being without my things.

It's because of all this that I haven't really started packing anything. I know the second I do that it'll all just hit me at once. And the careful preparation for everything is going to crumble. That and all my parent's threats leave me uncertain on how much I need to actually think about bringing. Although I'm 99% sure that none of it is true.. I'm still worried about the 1%. Because that 1% means coming home to an empty room and bags full of my stuff in the corner of the basement.

And this all sounds rather more hysterical than I really am.

Oh well. Tomorrow I'm going to pack my books and manga.. and start sorting through my clothes and figuring out how I'm going to bring it all with me. Also lists.. I'm going to make lots of lists.

I have secured a car for myself. A 2000 Toyota Corolla. I'm going to go pay for it and drive it away tomorrow. Although I'm still not sure about the whole registering thing. I mean.. I wrote down the papers I need. But one of them isn't on the site.. there's just a request form for them to mail it. And no notice of whether I can get it at the DMV. Hopefully I can so tomorrow it can be all registered.

Yea... life. Heh.