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ano...
This week has kinda flown by me, what with me missing out Monday here at UCONN. By I have much to think about now, and I'm not sure... but it makes me edgy.
The interview went well. I flew down on Sunday night. It was.. less than uneventful. My flight out of Hartford was late and I made it to Philly with about 5 minutes to run to a shuttle to get to the F terminal (from C) and then run down a million miles of hallway to get to my gate. Buuut.. I made it and didnt have to sleep in the airport, so all is well. I woke up at the hour of too early on Monday and went off to VIMS. It was nice there. It's really tiny (like... the entire campus is probably the size of the area containing the co-op, gampel... and the student union) and right on the water. They keep all their boats a few minutes walk from there. They're building crazy new buildings and salt water labs. And overall it looks like a really solid program. Basically a year of coursework, then like 2 years doing research.
Today I got an email. They're offering me a place. Full tuition, a stipend, and health insurance. Plus the possibility of a fellowship, pending an essay I need to write. They also want to hire me to work for at least the last half of the summer there.
...I'm not so sure how I feel about it though. I don't know if I'm just scared of change or what. But the more I think about graduating and going to grad school so far away.... it makes me feel increasingly more queasy and panicked. Like.. I don't know what I'm doing. Why I'm leaving. And I don't know if I'm just scared... or if the motivation just isn't as strong anymore. If it's the former... I need to toughen up. If it's the latter.... well... that's bad. Because I'm going to need all the motivation I can muster to survive any sort of grad program.
Speaking of motivation, I need to write my freakin thesis. It's due... April 27th. Have I worked on it at all? Of course not.
....I'm so freakin screwed. Stats here I come!
So basically... I have a lot to think about. A lot. Yeah.
=\ Part of me feels like I'm nowhere near ready for this....
The interview went well. I flew down on Sunday night. It was.. less than uneventful. My flight out of Hartford was late and I made it to Philly with about 5 minutes to run to a shuttle to get to the F terminal (from C) and then run down a million miles of hallway to get to my gate. Buuut.. I made it and didnt have to sleep in the airport, so all is well. I woke up at the hour of too early on Monday and went off to VIMS. It was nice there. It's really tiny (like... the entire campus is probably the size of the area containing the co-op, gampel... and the student union) and right on the water. They keep all their boats a few minutes walk from there. They're building crazy new buildings and salt water labs. And overall it looks like a really solid program. Basically a year of coursework, then like 2 years doing research.
Today I got an email. They're offering me a place. Full tuition, a stipend, and health insurance. Plus the possibility of a fellowship, pending an essay I need to write. They also want to hire me to work for at least the last half of the summer there.
...I'm not so sure how I feel about it though. I don't know if I'm just scared of change or what. But the more I think about graduating and going to grad school so far away.... it makes me feel increasingly more queasy and panicked. Like.. I don't know what I'm doing. Why I'm leaving. And I don't know if I'm just scared... or if the motivation just isn't as strong anymore. If it's the former... I need to toughen up. If it's the latter.... well... that's bad. Because I'm going to need all the motivation I can muster to survive any sort of grad program.
Speaking of motivation, I need to write my freakin thesis. It's due... April 27th. Have I worked on it at all? Of course not.
....I'm so freakin screwed. Stats here I come!
So basically... I have a lot to think about. A lot. Yeah.
=\ Part of me feels like I'm nowhere near ready for this....